Sad at lack of emotional connection with DX daughter (possible audhd?)
I've been feeling down lately because I just can't seem to feel an emotional connection to my kid. She's 7yo and dx/rx. I know she loves me, and I believe she knows I love her. But it's like there's this wall there. I try out all the different love languages -- words, cuddles, quality time, etc. It all seems to overwhelm her or not move her at all. So I try to dole out little bite-sized, not over-stimulating bits of affection, which goes a little better. She's been like this for as long as I remember.
But I have another kid, and he's NT. And I feel so much closer to him. He is so open and responsive to all types of affection. And this just makes me sad for what I'm missing with my daughter. I want that same closeness.
I worry somehow I messed up her early attachment to me? We didn't always have perfect patience through the toddler years. Or I worry she feels the wall between us too, and thinks it means something. Or I worry she'll never be able to form close emotional attachments.
At this age, I'm not sure if it's ADHD, maybe a touch of autism, or something else. I'm on a waiting list for a child's counselor.
But yeah, just wishing I could connect more with her emotionally and sad that I feel like I can't.