My net diary shows me that my maintenance calories are 1856 calories per day. I am 4’11, 23 years old, female and 110lbs. This number seems extremely high? I have it set to sedentary. To reach my goal it tells me to eat at 1400 calories per day. I’m just wondering if I’ll be making any progress :(
My net diary shows me that my maintenance calories are 1856 calories per day. I am 4’11, 23 years old, female and 110lbs. This number seems extremely high? I have it set to sedentary. To reach my goal it tells me to eat at 1400 calories per day. I’m just wondering if I’ll be making any progress :(
I was having chronic nausea for over a year. (Found out it was gluten) went gluten free in September & only get nausea when I get glutened…
It’s 12:15am. I was in the middle of a deep sleep, I wake up to an insane pain in my upper belly, with nausea. I couldn’t have gotten glutened. I’m sooo scared. All my fear has came back. I’m freaking out
I knew paras were underpaid, but I didn’t realize the extent. This was my first year as a paraprofessional, and the pay was a slap in the face. Finding out aids make basically the same amount as paras, honestly killed me. AIDS don’t have to deal with 95% of what paras do. I was beat almost 80% of the time, taken advantage of, and had to deal with being in a gray area. It is disgusting that anyone could look at our job, and decide that our job and wages are equal. The fact that most of us need a second job & summer job to just keep our head above water really hurts me. I am 23 and literally can’t afford anything, I’ve been hunting for a part time job and summer job on top of this. No one should get beat day after day with such little pay.
Today I stepped on the scale, and I am 15lbs heavier then I was 1 1/2 months ago. In less then 2 months I gained 15lbs by binging. I could only imagine how much it would have been if I hadn’t been also working out. I am truly feeling insanely guilty with myself. This did cause a binge later in the day.
I am doing all the “right” things but every dam day I am binging.
\- I go to therapy
\- I eat breakfast, lunch & dinner
\- I am very aware of my BED & my triggers
\- I know to go for a walk, or do something else
I feel hopeless. I feel like I’m getting worse. My jeans that I just bought don’t even fit me. My birthday is in less then 2 months and all I want is to be binge free till then. What the fuck do I do
Today I stepped on the scale, and I am 15lbs heavier then I was 1 1/2 months ago. In less then 2 months I gained 15lbs by binging. I could only imagine how much it would have been if I hadn’t been also working out. I am truly feeling insanely guilty with myself. This did cause a binge later in the day.
I am doing all the “right” things but every dam day I am binging.
- I go to therapy
- I eat breakfast, lunch & dinner
- I am very aware of my BED & my triggers
- I know to go for a walk, or do something else
I feel hopeless. I feel like I’m getting worse. My jeans that I just bought don’t even fit me. My birthday is in less then 2 months and all I want is to be binge free till then. What the fuck do I do
I am currently 4 days & 20 hours binge free post my worst binge ever on Sunday. (Tonight makes 5 full days) during the week my eating habits were goodish, today I’ve been snacking but I’m within my maintenance calories which is my goal for this week, next week I start my deficit.
Today? I had a horrible day at work, it was like I was in a boxing match from the moment I stepped into work, to the moment I left. My break? My head was spinning, replaying what was going on. Once I left work, all I could think about was work. The way i was / am dreading Monday. I literally just want to binge. I love the “high” I get when I binge, and I love the way it makes me feel DURING a binge (until I loose control, then I start feeling full, guilty, exct & keep going) but the aftermath of a binge is horrible, it’s literally self harm in my opinion. I eat to the point I’m in so much pain I can’t even lay down & then some. I am literally sooooo distraught & need some advice. I am not going to binge because all I am thinking about is the post binge feeling & I want to be different. I crave my future self so I’m going to act like her!
I work full time in a school & am getting basically nothing. I’m in roughly 4k debt, and my car that I JUST BOUGHT broke down on me on the day I had a second job interview (I ended missing it bc of my car). I won’t be able to get it fixed til next week & come summer I’m out of a job.
I’ve been applying at retail, grocery stores, (there’s not many restaurants near me & the ones that are, aren’t hiring) online, fast food, ext.
I’ve tried baby sitting but no body in my neighborhoods has young kids & the ones that do would rather have their mom babysit instead of paying someone. (Duh in this economy, shits rough)
Any advice ??