u/Technical_Event1244

soooo, i'll try to keep it short.

I (19) have a best friend (18), we met online & have been together for 4 years.

She's that one girl who always has a problem going in her life. Every single day, there's a new issue. Ik how hard it must be for her. Her parents aren't supportive, She has friends who betrayed her, and now a guy who led her on & ghosted her to be with another girl. So much happening at once.

Her parents are soooo toxic that they don't appreciate her at all. She has never scored below 95, this year she scored 98% in her 12th boards. And they got her a diamond ring but continue to treat her like trash. They don't even support her goal (she's preparing for the CA exam). so yeah, all this shit.

Butttt ik ik, This sounds so bad but I get tired sometimes. I feel exhausted. I am her only friend and no matter what happens, She runs to me. I am grateful to be her safe space but... I am a human being as well, I get tired too.

I am recently suffering coz of my first breakup & tbh I don't feel like talking. But she keeps telling me how she made a new friends & gives me update about every chat of theirs. How he ragebaited her or how they had a fight nd all that shit.

I legit feel so bad for saying this but I am tired af. This happens every 6 months when I get tired of all this but I go back to her coz ik she has no one else. I donnooooooo yaaarrrrrrrrrrrr arghhhhhh.

It's early in the morning and I feel so pathetic for thinking about all the nicknames he ever gave me. They were so adorable. I felt like the little girl in me was finally healing. Felt like I had a second home. And now I feel homeless. I can't hate him even if I want to.

why would he do this to me?????

I mean it was all going good. I thought we had the best relationship. He showed me how much he loved me instead of acting nonchalant. Then we had an argument. Few more arguments in next 3-4 days.

And he told me how tired he got coz I used to get upset for no reason. All these months, he kept it to himself. He said he thought I'd change overtime. But I didn't.

I didn't know this would escalate so much. I tried to hold onto it. Cried. Begged him to stay. But his voice was flat as if he was so tired of me. Ofc we donno his perspective. But I am feeling so guilty for fumbling my first.

We talked like good old friends while breaking up. Take care nd all that shit.

It's been 3 days since we last talked and he still hasn't blocked me from anywhere. Why?

Yesterday he added a song to our playlist (he made it for me) but removed it before I could see. What does he wants?

Also I'm so worried about him as NEET got cancelled. I just hope he is fine. I get this urge to text him and ask if he is okay but I don't wanna be that one toxic ex.

Going through my first heartbreak. And tbh it stressed me a lot. It was all my fault.

I got physically sick. My brother knows it & I feel judged by his words. I mean ik it's all momentary but my feelings still matter, right?

I can't tell my mom about it & she is treating me like I'm just normally sick. Yes, she is taking care of me, I don't wanna be ungrateful. But sometimes her actions and words make me feel like I'm being a burden on her.

I wish I wasn't this difficult to love or to be with. It sucks.

No need to read this. just venting. ty.

I hope that day comes soon when I don't think of you while looking at ayushmann khurana.

The day I can restart listening to softcore DHH without thinking about the playlist you curated for me.

I hope to despise every love song that you wanted to add in the makeout playlist.

I hate the fact that I can't hate you coz you did nothing wrong.

But ig I was being a huge burden on you, so here, I let go of you.

Bear with me guys. It's my first afterall.

Making someone your only source of happiness & depending on them emotionally can lead to emotional wreckage Once you feel like they're fading away.

My first relationship. Fights happened and now I'm miserable. He said he isn't going anywhere. So I decided to give him some space. For a whole week.

It's just day 4th. And in these 4 days, I daily wake up with a weird anxiety in my chest. cold sensations all over. In my ears as well. And I feel like vomiting, sometimes I do, sometimes not. I feel no energy in my body. almost lifeless. and I feel so anxious.

By noon, I am doing good, going on with my day, even fine at night.

what happens as soon as I wake up? it feels like a loop. Can anyone please help me?

So I am just gonna say it here. I donno I can't keep this to myself anymore.

So me and my boyfriend met around 5 months ago & it was like one of those connections you feel instantly. we just knew each other..I told him I like him and we started dating even tho it's long distance. He is so sweet & caring.

few days ago, he had his exam. He is not feeling so well academically & the expectations from is family crushed him even more.

Fights got frequent and ofc we had no physical proximity to solve it with a hug or smth. Even small things became big.

In these 5 months, I didn't realise how dependent I got on him. Since I have no friends or hobbies. It was just him so you get how emotionally dependent I became. my world revolved around him.

He is exhausted. and things escalated so much, we both started telling each other to block n stuffs.

But i somehow got into my senses and told him & myself to calm down. I decided to give him space for a week. His anxiety makes him pull away while mine makes me want reassurance that he is not leaving.

My body is treating this like an emergency. The fights lasted 3 days and it's been 3 days since I haven't texted him. First few days, I wasn't even able to eat properly. I cried at random moments. cold sensations in my chest & ears.

Now I can't sleep. I feel this weird thing in my body and mind and no matter how much I try, it doesn't goes away. I am fine by noon everyday, sleep well but then every morning, the anxiety is back.

Love is really not for the week. It's my first relationship. I learnt so much but at what cost. I just wish we could go back to how we were 9 days ago.

while I write this, the weird feeling in my chest stays. I can't sleep. please help.

what doesn't kills you causes a weird cold sensation in your chest & throat & keeps you awake at night.

There's a huge void in my heart like I've lost everything. Suddenly getting anxious and having thoughts about all the way he showed me how much he loved me. How can it vanish in a day???

Soooo.

How do you get over someone who never hurt you?

Me and my boyfriend were in a relationship for 4-5 months now. And I never thought this day would come as well.

It's all my fault. I'm a pathetic insecure loser. I was so insecure coz of my past experiences with men or coz of the things I saw on social media. I did things that hurt him. He says he isn't able to be himself fully in front of me. That we fought or had arguments on every little topic. It exhausted him. He is at his lowest academically. Says he is too hurt and won't ever be able to love me the same. He won't be able to forgive me.

The same man who taught me how to love myself. Helped me with insecurities related to my appearance is now saying all this.I feel shattered. Before him, I didn't know what love was. I'd have fixed this in my own ways if we were together but long distance makes it harder. I can't do anything except apologising.

We reached to the point where we both were telling each other to block. But none had the courage to do it. I don't want him to feel suffocated in this but I am not able to let him go. We decided to have some space for 7 days. If he still doesn't feels like he can forgive me after that, we'll drift apart.

ik this sounds like a typical breakup story, I used to feel the same when I read such posts on social media. Now I get them. I get the pain. I get the helplessness.