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I’m so mad at my ex, but at the same time I’ve started to really miss him. It doesn’t help that I see him everywhere. We work at the same hospital, we have the same orientation, so we’re in the same classes and training. I’ll see him in the cafeteria, the parking lot—there’s really no way to avoid him.
I’ve been trying to ignore him and act like it doesn’t bother me, especially because he doesn’t seem affected at all. He’s always laughing and acting normal, and I’m trying to do the same,
even though my chest literally hurts every time I see him.
The other day we ended up in the same elevator after class, just the two of us, and neither of us said anything or even looked at each other. It was so weird, because a month ago it would’ve been completely different.
It’s just hard seeing him when we’re supposed to be no contact. And that’s not even getting into the fact that we still have a lease together and a pet. It’s just a lot. I’m trying to focus on myself and water my own grass. But I just keep thinking about him… is he okay? Does he want to talk? And I keep asking myself if I know the breakup needed to happen, why does part of me still want to be with him? I’m just so conflicted.. I know he doesn’t want me in his life but I’m just struggling to come to terms with that.

I literally hate my ex so much. I hate how easily you used me as a fix for your loneliness until you made a friend group, and then once you did, you just discarded me. You said you wanted independence, but really you just enjoyed hanging out with your friends more than being with me.

I hate how as soon as you got a friend group, you stopped trying to fix the issues in our relationship. You made me feel like shit and turned off your phone when I brought something up, because I’m being “ shitty” for ruining your night because I know your out with your friends. When you’re literally always out with your friends and never wanted to communicate with me.

When we argued, I sat around trying to figure out how to fix the issue. What did you do? You hung out with you friends and went to bars etc. showing me time after time that you didn’t even care.

I hate how you kept lying, saying you still cared and still wanted a future with me, while telling your friends all the problems in our relationship instead of addressing them with me.

Then you broke no contact just to apologize because you felt guilty about how you handled things, but still made it clear you don’t want me in your life. Like, what was the point? Using me as your emotional outlet so you could feel better about your shitty actions?

And when I told you I resented you for destroying my life and forcing me to rebuild it again, you said you don’t care enough to resent me. That says everything.

Throughout the whole relationship, I prioritized you. I put you first. I cared about you more than anything. We’ve broken up twice already, but this is the first time I actually think I might hate you. I seriously so tired of justifying your actions and acting like I wasn’t in pain during the relationship.

You made all these false promises when we got back together, just to turn around and say we were “bored and horny.” I wasn’t bored. I wasn’t horny. I was in love with you. I wanted to marry you. That’s why I came back.

Everything was such a lie.

Hi everyone,

I recently failed my first attempt at the NCLEX on Monday. For my preparation, I used UWorld and Mark K, and I’m now planning to take a different approach for my next attempt.

I’m currently working under my state’s pre-exam licensure, which allows me to work while preparing for the NCLEX since I need the income. However, if I fail again, I will lose my job, so there’s a lot of pressure on me to pass next time and I’m trying to adjust my studying as effectively as possible.

Here is my Candidate Performance Evaluation (CPE):

Management of Care: Near Passing Standard
Safety and Infection Control: Below Passing Standard
Health Promotion and Maintenance: Below Passing Standard
Psychosocial Integrity: Near Passing Standard
Basic Care and Comfort: Near Passing Standard
Pharmacological and Parenteral Therapies: Near Passing Standard
Reduction of Risk Potential: Near Passing Standard
Physiological Adaptation: Near Passing Standard
Clinical Judgment: Near passing standard
Recognize Cues: Below Passing Standard
Analyze Cues: Below Passing Standard
Prioritize Hypotheses: Near Passing Standard
Generate Solutions: Near Passing Standard
Take Actions: Above Passing Standard
Evaluate Outcomes: Above Passing Standard

Has anyone used NCLEX Bootcamp? If so, how did it compare to UWorld, and did it actually help you improve or pass?

I’d really appreciate any advice, study strategies, or experiences from anyone who’s been in a similar situation.

Hi everyone,

I recently failed my first attempt at the NCLEX on Monday. For my preparation, I used UWorld and Mark K, and I’m now planning to take a different approach for my next attempt.

I’m currently working under my state’s pre-exam licensure, which allows me to work while preparing for the NCLEX since I need the income. However, if I fail again, I will lose my job, so there’s a lot of pressure on me to pass next time and I’m trying to adjust my studying as effectively as possible.

Here is my Candidate Performance Evaluation (CPE):

Management of Care: Near Passing Standard
Safety and Infection Control: Below Passing Standard
Health Promotion and Maintenance: Below Passing Standard
Psychosocial Integrity: Near Passing Standard
Basic Care and Comfort: Near Passing Standard
Pharmacological and Parenteral Therapies: Near Passing Standard
Reduction of Risk Potential: Near Passing Standard
Physiological Adaptation: Near Passing Standard
Clinical Judgment: Near passing standards
Recognize Cues: Below Passing Standard
Analyze Cues: Below Passing Standard
Prioritize Hypotheses: Near Passing Standard
Generate Solutions: Near Passing Standard
Take Actions: Above Passing Standard
Evaluate Outcomes: Above Passing Standard

Has anyone used NCLEX Bootcamp? If so, how did it compare to UWorld, and did it actually help you improve or pass?

I’d really appreciate any advice, study strategies, or experiences from anyone who’s been in a similar situation.

I thought the exam was pretty straight forward then it didn’t shut off at 85 questions. I was literally about to cry during the exam. I couldn’t even tell if the questions were easy or just been “ straight forward” I literally just feel so defeated because I feel like I was just clicking through the exam and it only took me like an hour and half. I feel so defeated. I think I just had too much going on in my personal life to actually feel ready and take this exam 🫩.

How’s likely is it that I passed?

I have the biggest exam of my life in just a few days, my state licensure exam, and honestly, everything feels like it’s falling apart at the same time.

My boyfriend broke up with me a week ago, and now I’m living alone in an apartment we were supposed to share together. That’s been one of the hardest parts being in a space that was meant for “us” and trying to accept that it’s just me now.

What makes it even harder is that I’m taking this exam on what would’ve been our 3 year anniversary… or at least one of them, since we’ve broken up before. It’s just a lot to carry all at once.

I can admit our relationship wasn’t the healthiest, but it still hurts more than I can explain. I was told I was too dependent, that he wanted his own life, and that he never saw me as his equal because I seemed “helpless.” Those words have been stuck in my head. The truth is, the relationship wasn’t the best, and there were times he made me feel small, worthless, and like I wasn’t enough—but that doesn’t make any of this easier.

At the same time, I’m trying to hold everything else together. I’ve been in school for four years, I’m trying to figure out finances, get a car after being denied a loan, and navigate life completely on my own. I don’t have family to fall back on, and that kind of isolation is something I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

I feel like I’m carrying everything by myself, and constantly having to be strong is exhausting. I miss having someone there. I miss feeling supported. I sometimes just miss having someone who actually feels like they care to talk to about this type of stuff…. even if it’s fake. Even if the person told me he never missed me when he went weeks without talking and seeing me. Even if the person said his friends was more fun to hangout with than me. Even if the person would ghost me every time something goes wrong in our relationship. And even though I know deep down I can do this, its just stressful

Lately, I’ve been feeling like if I mess this up, if I fail this exam? everything in my life is going to fall apart. Like I’ve already messed up somehow and now I’m just trying to hold on before everything crashes. I know that might not be fully rational, but it’s how it feels right now.

So right now, I’m just trying to keep going, even when it feels like everything is cracking. I really hope things start to come together.

Idk I’m just venting 😞

Hey everyone,
My NCLEX is exactly 1 week away, and I'm honestly more stressed than I've been this entire process.
I've completed over 1,500 UWorld questionsand currently have about a 67% QBank average. I've taken two UWorld self-assessments and scored:
Self-Assessment #1: 78%

Self-Assessment #2: 72%

I still have one self-assessment left to take.
I've been listening to Mark K lectures, reviewing content, and trying to stay consistent with practice questions. My plan right now is to take one CAT exam every day until my test date.
The reason I'm posting is because I recently took a CAT exam and scored 59%, and it is absolutely destroying my confidence. Ever since then, I've been questioning whether I'm actually ready for NCLEX at all.
I feel like every day I find another disease, medication, or concept that I don't know as well as I should. Sometimes I feel okay, and then I'll get a score that makes me feel like I've learned nothing.
I genuinely can't tell if this is normal pre-NCLEX anxiety or if I'm actually underprepared. Right now, it feels like my confidence is at an all-time low despite all the studying I've done.
I'm trying not to spiral, but it's getting harder as the exam gets closer. Any advice, encouragement, or honest feedback would really mean a lot.
Thank you ❤️

Hey everyone,
My NCLEX is exactly 1 week away, and I'm honestly more stressed than I've been this entire process.
I've completed over 1,500 UWorld questionsand currently have about a 67% QBank average. I've taken two UWorld self-assessments and scored:
Self-Assessment #1: 78%

Self-Assessment #2: 72%

I still have one self-assessment left to take.
I've been listening to Mark K lectures, reviewing content, and trying to stay consistent with practice questions. My plan right now is to take one CAT exam every day until my test date.
The reason I'm posting is because I recently took a CAT exam and scored 59%, and it is absolutely destroying my confidence. Ever since then, I've been questioning whether I'm actually ready for NCLEX at all.

I feel like every day I find another disease, medication, or concept that I don't know as well as I should. Sometimes I feel okay, and then I'll get a score that makes me feel like I've learned nothing.
I genuinely can't tell if this is normal pre-NCLEX anxiety or if I'm actually underprepared. Right now, it feels like my confidence is at an all-time low despite all the studying I've done.
I'm trying not to spiral, but it's getting harder as the exam gets closer. Any advice, encouragement, or honest feedback would really mean a lot.
Thank you ❤️

I (22) and my boyfriend (22) have been together for 2.5 years. We’re both about to graduate nursing school, and this semester has been extremely stressful for both of us. We also just signed a lease and are supposed to move in together in 2 days. My lease ends May 10th and his ends in July.

Recently, he made a new friend group. We used to mostly share friends, but he told me he wanted his own space socially, and I respected that. The issue is that now he spends most of his time with them and sees them more than he sees me. He says he doesn’t like being alone, so he prefers to be around people, which I understand, but it’s made me feel like I’m no longer a priority in his life. Even when we do spend time together, he’s often distracted by constant texts and calls from them.

We’ve also been having conflict about the move-in situation. I suggested he sublease his apartment so we could fully move in together at the same time, but he said he doesn’t have the mental capacity for that right now and would rather delay moving in until late May or even June. I was upset because that would mean I’d be living alone for almost a month in a new place, but he refused and said he already has too much on his plate.

We barely see each other anymore, and when we do, we end up fighting. I’ve tried to communicate how I feel, but he says he’s too emotionally drained from nursing school to be emotionally available for me and that I should find someone else. At the same time, I’ve been going through a lot too—I lost both of my parents during nursing school, and I’m struggling with the fact they won’t be here to see me graduate.

When I’ve asked directly if we’re breaking up, he’s said no and that he still sees a future with me. But things have continued to feel distant.

On top of that, I recently found out he’s been talking to someone I had previously expressed discomfort about. I told him it made me uncomfortable, but he said they’re going through a lot and are emotionally unstable, so he feels like he needs to be there for them.

Recently, I was out drinking with friends (and some of his friends were there too). I was pretty drunk, and he came up, said he was going home, and said goodnight. He didn’t ask how I was getting home or check in on me at all. I got really upset because I already feel like I’m not a priority, and that moment triggered a lot for me. I told him we should break up, which I now feel may have been a reaction in the moment.

We talked about it afterward, and he’s still upset with me and being pretty distant. I asked to meet briefly before I go to work, but he said he was too emotionally drained. I later found out he’s been hanging out with friends and watching movies. When I told him I just feel really alone and need support, he said he can’t provide that right now.

He did reaffirm that he still wants to be together, but when I bring up feeling like I’m not a priority, he says he’s prioritizing himself right now.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel really overwhelmed emotionally and like I don’t have much support. I don’t want us to break up, but I also feel like I’m getting more hurt and reactive because of how distant things have become. I also recognize I’ve had moments where I’ve handled things poorly.

Should I just give him space? I’m really unsure what the right move is here.

TL;DR: My boyfriend has become distant and emotionally unavailable due to stress and a new friend group, while I’m also grieving major losses. We’re about to move in together but keep fighting, and I feel unsupported. He says he still wants the relationship, but I don’t know if I should give him space or if it’s already over.