u/Terrible-Visit-5003

Hi, so Ive stopped self harming since the start of the year, which means im clean for 5 months. However I can never leave the house without wearing long sleeves. I really need these to fade because wearing hoodies when it's that hot out is really awful. I want to tattoo my entire arm so it's more discreet but if I do it now then it's a bad idea. The scars are not that deep btw, I would post a pic but the community doesn't allow it

So im 19 and everytime i do anything slighly childish my brain goes "oh grown ass man sleeping with plushies" or "grown ass eating ice cream with a hat on" or even: "grown ass man playing videogames".

is this something of what you'all experienced? like im so young but i feel like a twice divorced man, ive always been so mature than everybody else in life and thats weird, people my age or older are struggling in highschool and im here struggling to pay bills and overcome trauma.

so im on t for 8 months already, and lately i feel like there something tightening my throat and its overall very uncomfortable, i already got a few voice drops but i didnt change aaaallllll that much, could this feeling mean my voice is dropping again? doesnt seen like its an illness like it doesnt hurt at all, its just weird because it was never like this before. if i could explain my voice rn i would say its like of a preteen boy and raspy

So I play on my laptop with a nintendo pro controller and I'm playing GTA 5 and I'm on the quest "nervous Ron" and I cannot land the fucking plane and park it because it's wheels are not out, how do I get the wheels out? Please anwer, I love this game and I cannot progress because of this.

So I have chronic insomnia (I have since I was a baby) and several other issues, and I can only have a relatively good day when I sleep A LOT. Today for example I slept for over 20 hours. I went to sleep yesterday at 9 pm, woke up at 7 am , went to sleep again at 2 pm to 6 pm and I'm still tired. Dunno what's wrong with me. If I happen to get less than 9 hours of sleep then I pissed all day long and tired as hell. I also need pills to sleep due to the insomnia, btw, that fact makes my life a living nightmare cause I either have to take medication or drink alcohol to be able to sleep which is a pain in the ass. I cannot by any means sleep naturally. Can you all give me some advice? Like getting tested for narcolepsy?