I'm just gonna say it. The TABE test is fucking pointless. It makes me wanna just quit and end everything
(Just a vent)
In Los Angeles, I've done the TABE test 8 fucking times and every single one has had the same exact score. How?! How TF does this shit happen?! I'm trying so hard to get the fuck out of this center, out of this cracked out and scummy city and out of this scummy ass state so I can do advanced training in a new state. I'm done with it. I'm done with this whole damn cycle.
It also doesn't help that I've been in my trade for the past 5 months and I haven't had adequate time to study. The trade is almost done, and once it finishes, I'm gonna be subject to this pointless cycle of failing TABE after TABE again and again. I personally feel the staff are intentionally doing this to make me feel like a complete idiot. I took a TABE once a few months back, and for a bit, I had actually celebrated because I had a 5, when I've been getting 4s this whole time, but then I find out a mistake was made and I got the wrong test, and my score means nothing. That is NOT a mistake. A mistake is stepping on someone's shoe by accident. This honestly feels intentional.
I'm done with this whole cycle, and I'm just...I'm done! I wanna end my time here at the center, in the city, and maybe...my own future. Maybe I should just give up on my future and my life.
I try so hard and it feels like nothing actually improves. I'm tempted to just resign and quit and end everything if I take one more TABE test and fail. I have accommodations and it's still not enough.
I guess I could ask to see if the center will let me waive it, but even then that feels like it won't work.
(Thanks for listening to me vent)