u/The_Stoic_Sprite

The mc is an environmental scientist who suffers some kind of genetic mutation and thus suffer from physical pain. The story focuses on her trying to find the origin & cure by travelling to different regions. It's set in a country inspired by 20th century England. It's not a love story. I'm thinking of naming it "Filtered" but it might change in the future.

Does this plot sound interesting?

The mc is an environmental scientist who suffers some kind of genetic mutation and thus suffer from physical pain. The story focuses on her trying to find the origin & cure by travelling to different regions. It's set in a country inspired by 20th century England. It's not a love story.

I suck at coming up with titles. Any ideas?

How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself

I'm an 18 year old female. I just graduated a few months ago and I'm currently preparing myself for college. I'm also someone who's private about my personal life.

Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?

I have situational mutism, basically I have trouble talking to other people outside of my family. There are also symptoms of OCD and BPD. (but these 2 aren't officially diagnosed) I also have heart issues but that only affects my confidence.

Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?

I would say that I grew up in a non religious family. I had a complicated childhood due to physical and mental health issues. I feel like my parents are too overprotective and as a result I don't feel really independent. But now I try to do things on my own without their help. There were also feelings of inadequacy growing up and shame.

What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?

Currently I do not have a job but I'm planning to become a concept artist in the future. And probably do something that inspires other people.

If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?

I'd feel relaxed in the beginning but later feel bored and lonely. But at the same time I'd feel refreshed when I get to spend some alone time without anyone bothering me.

What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like it, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?

I don't do sports due to heart related issues. So I naturally prefer to spend my time doing what I like at home such as writing, reading books, watching videos, learning a new language etc.

How curious are you? Do you have more ideas than you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?

Very. I'm definitely someone who's curious about how things work and why. I do have difficulty executing my ideas because there are a lot. I'm naturally curious about everything. Probably more conceptual. My ideas are closely tied to my artistic hobbies such as writing and drawing.

Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?

I'd volunteer to be in a leader position only if no one wants to do it. But I prefer to be the leader in a group project because I don't trust other people enough to lead. I'd assign each of them tasks to do. If I see someone slacking off I'd be very upset.

Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?

I would say so. I've always been working with my hands since I was a kid such as making miniature food and houses, anything related to arts and crafts I love. But nowadays, I mostly focus on bringing my ideas to life through drawing etc.

Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particularly artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forms of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.

I'd consider myself to be an artistic person. I usually like to draw digitally and traditionally. I love all forms of art including music, anime, movies, art books etc.

What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?

The past is filled with pain and complications but it is also a lesson that's necessary for growth. The present is something that I can decide and control if I want a better future. The future is probably filled with uncertainty and excitement but no matter what happens I have to keep moving forward & find ways to fix it. And at the same time, cherish the people I love around me.

How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?

It depends. I'd usually help them to do something but if they ask for my help too frequently I'd get annoyed. Especially if it's someone I'm not close to. Generally, I help people just for the sake of it. I just like to make people happy.

Do you need logical consistency in your life?

Yep. I hate it when things don't make any logical sense. I'm also obsessed with how things work and why. For example, I get annoyed when rules don't make any logical sense and I'm expected to just follow it because I'm told to by authorities.

How important is efficiency and productivity to you?

Sometimes I'd take short cuts just to finish something quickly and move onto something new. I'd only be productive if there is an important deadline otherwise I'd just procrastinate. I also hate people who complain or whine about it without getting anything done.

Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?

I'm not someone who's controlling over other people. I usually let people do anything they want unless it's something that harms themselves or other people.

What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?

Drawing, writing, reading books, learning a new language, researching and learning random stuff, singing, watching videos, listening to music. I love them because I get to learn something new.

What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?

I'm most likely a visual learner. I struggle with learning environments that are noisy and stressful. I prefer classes that involve creativity and logic. I don't like memorising things. I usually learn well with things I'm interested in.

How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?

Most of the time I would break them down into manageable tasks but when it comes to personal projects I'd probably wing it sometimes.

What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?

Success in whatever I do in life profession and relationship wise. And being able to make a difference in the world someday. Personally, I'd want to be an expert in the things I do and live a happy and healthy life. And also overcoming my fears and struggles.

What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?

Fear of being a failure and letting myself and other people down. I'm also afraid of insects, heights, sharp objects and getting yelled at. Sharing thoughts about myself makes me uncomfortable because I'm afraid of being perceived as weak or incompetent. I hate being controlled by other people because I prefer to make decisions on my own. I hate when I don't get recognised for the things I'm good at.

What do the "highs" in your life look like?

Being happy and content with my life. Not having to worry about anything. Succeeding my goals. Small achievements. Getting accepted by others despite my flaws.

What do the "lows" in your life look like?

Stress, anxiety, failure. Health issues. Being upset and frustrated about something.

How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?

If I'm doing something important like my hobbies or when I'm studying then I'd be attached to reality. But I do have a tendency to daydream sometimes just to pass the time but I'd still be aware of what's around me. I even do it just so I could fall asleep and when listening to music.

Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about it?

I'd probably start daydreaming and think about how to escape. If I get bored, I'll try to escape.

How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?

Maybe a few weeks because I'm indecisive. I wouldn't change it unless something major happens.

How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?

Generally just a few minutes then I just move on. If I was in a bad mood that day, it would probably take longer, maybe a day. My emotions are somewhat important but I sometimes have to ignore them just to get something done.

Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?

Only when people are deciding where to eat or go on a weekend then I'd just agree with them. If it's something important then I'd usually voice my opinion.

Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?

I have broken some before in school, once was accidental but I actually got caught. It was a stupid rule that didn't make sense so I didn't mind it that much.

Personality traits: imaginative, curious, generous, thoughtful, a bit impatient, perfectionist, overthinker, cynical, secretly competitive, emotionally sensitive, adaptable, quiet, anxious, private

1. I'd say that I'm an empathetic person and I can feel others' emotions deeply (sometimes) but at the same time I wouldn't know how to comfort someone when they're upset and is probably more focused on fixing the problem. I'm also not good at showing that I care about someone. Not physically affectionate at all.

2. I've been described as a crybaby growing up because I'd always cry over seemingly little things for no apparent reason. Basically was a very sensitive child (still am).

3. I've always been obsessed with knowing why something happened and how to prevent it from happening in the future. If not, I will keep thinking about it until it gets solved. My catchphrases are "I don't know." "Why?" "It depends." I have the most random knowledge on different subjects but it's mostly surface level knowledge unless it's something that I'm interested in. Will sometimes go down random rabbit holes. Loves learning about new stuff.

4. Not a very social kid growing up and only has a few close friends despite knowing a lot of people, if that makes sense? Always been described as shy and quiet. I don't like being told what to do. I set high expectations for myself and get upset when it turns out differently. Sometimes I feel like I have to hide some negative parts of my personality to be well liked because I'm afraid of someone perceiving me differently or even hating me.

5. Sometimes I get I hunches of random things like what that person is going to say or what's going to happen even without any evidence or even recalling past experiences and is often right.

6. I have a tendency to connect 2 random things that don't seem to have any relevance to one another. I also have problems finishing things I've started because I would get distracted or start procrastinating.

7. I'd say that my grades were average except for a few subjects I was interested in but fortunately I was able to pass my finals. English, Science and Art was my strongest subject. My weakest subject in school is Maths, it's not that I hate it. I've tried hard to understand but I just can't. Definitely not a gifted kid.

8. Not the best with memories and memorising things in general. Plus I hate it. Because of that, I'd write things down on paper to avoid forgetting. Such as friends' birthdays or assignments. Hobbies include reading, learning a new language, drawing and writing fictional stories. I get impatient with inefficiency and throw out unnecessary stuff in my room.

9. I've been obsessed with people before but it's more like admiration rather than lust. (If that makes sense.) But unlike a sx 9, I don't want to merge with them. I can be secretly possessive of the people I care about. I'm not someone who would have a crush on someone without knowing anything about their personality. I want to connect with people but at the same time I'm scared of opening up.

I remember I had a homeroom teacher when I was in primary school who actually hated me for no reason. (There were actually 2 homeroom teachers who disliked me but I don't exactly remember what happened with the first one.) Maybe because I was quiet but to be honest I'm still not sure to this day.

Due to health issues, my books were stored in a plastic container that was kept in a locker at the back of the classroom and I would only carry my homework home everyday. (My classmates would take turns to carry it to my desk whenever I arrived which I'm VERY grateful for) And I remember once I couldn't find my book in the container and one of my classmates told her about it. At that time, she was standing beside me. I was crouched on the floor trying to find my book and when I finally found it, I looked up and saw that she annoyed / angry at me. (Probably for wasting her time or something). Prior to that, she had also humiliated me in front of the class because my essay was bad. There were probably a couple more instances, but these are the only ones I remember clearly.

Fast forward a bit later still in primary school, we had a substitute teacher teaching us. And one time we were playing a learning game in class. Basically, the teacher would play a song while a plastic jar filled with questions printed on small pieces of paper was being passed from person to person and whoever that had it on their table when the music stopped had to stand up and answer the question. Obviously, it landed on my table when the music stopped. Long story short, I didn't answer the question and just awkwardly stood there while the whole class was silent. He didn't get mad and told me to sit down afterwards. BUT he confronted me later about it when I was in the teacher's office looking for my teacher because I had to take a test after being absent from school. And I asked him very quietly where her desk was at. And guess what happened? He COMPLETELY ignored my question and asked me why I didn't answer the question in class. Eventually, he walked out of the teacher's office after not answering him. At that point I was already starting to get annoyed. But in the end I did manage to find her because she spotted me and I took the test.

The only teachers who liked me a lot throughout primary school were my English teachers and English has become one of my favorite subjects since then. Good news is I still managed to graduate from high school despite my condition. So don't give up and keep trying!

Recently typed myself as a sx 5, 594 but I'm not 100% sure. Btw I'm an infj.

Personality traits: imaginative, curious, generous, thoughtful, a bit impatient, perfectionist, overthinker, cynical, secretly competitive, emotionally sensitive, adaptable, quiet

1. I'd say that I'm an empathetic person and I can feel others' emotions deeply (sometimes) but at the same time I wouldn't know how to comfort someone when they're upset and is probably more focused on fixing the problem. I'm also not good at showing that I care about someone. Not physically affectionate at all.

2. I've been described as a crybaby growing up because I'd always cry over seemingly little things for no apparent reason. Basically was a very sensitive child (still am). I'm not someone who falls for someone easily.

3. I've always been obsessed with knowing why something happened and how to prevent it from happening in the future. If not, I will keep thinking about it until it gets solved. My catchphrases are "I don't know." "Why?" "It depends." I have the most random knowledge on different subjects but it's mostly surface level knowledge unless it's something that I'm interested in. Will sometimes go down random rabbit holes. Loves learning about new stuff.

4. Not a very social kid growing up and only has a few close friends despite knowing a lot of people, if that makes sense? Always been described as shy and quiet. I don't like being told what to do. I set high expectations for myself and get upset when it turns out differently. Sometimes I feel like I have to hide some negative parts of my personality to be well liked because I'm afraid of someone perceiving me differently or even hating me.

5. Sometimes I get I hunches of random things like what that person is going to say or what's going to happen even without any evidence or even recalling past experiences and is often right.

6. I have a tendency to connect 2 random things that don't seem to have any relevance to one another. I also have problems finishing things I've started because I would get distracted or start procrastinating.

7. I'd say that my grades were average except for a few subjects I was interested in but fortunately I was able to pass my finals. English, Science and Art was my strongest subject. My weakest subject in school is Maths, it's not that I hate it. I've tried hard to understand but I just can't. Definitely not a gifted kid.

8. Not the best with memories and memorising things in general. Plus I hate it. Because of that, I'd write things down on paper to avoid forgetting. Such as friends' birthdays or assignments. Hobbies include reading, learning a new language, drawing and writing fictional stories. I get impatient with inefficiency and throw out unnecessary stuff in my room.

Personality traits: imaginative, curious, generous, thoughtful, a bit impatient, perfectionist, overthinker, cynical, secretly competitive, emotionally sensitive, adaptable, quiet

1. I'd say that I'm an empathetic person and I can feel others' emotions deeply (sometimes) but at the same time I wouldn't know how to comfort someone when they're upset and is probably more focused on fixing the problem. I'm also not good at showing that I care about someone. Not physically affectionate at all.

2. I've been described as a crybaby growing up because I'd always cry over seemingly little things for no apparent reason. Basically was a very sensitive child (still am). I'm not someone who falls for someone easily.

3. I've always been obsessed with knowing why something happened and how to prevent it from happening in the future. If not, I will keep thinking about it until it gets solved. My catchphrases are "I don't know." "Why?" "It depends." I have the most random knowledge on different subjects but it's mostly surface level knowledge unless it's something that I'm interested in. Will sometimes go down random rabbit holes. Loves learning about new stuff.

4. Not a very social kid growing up and only has a few close friends despite knowing a lot of people, if that makes sense? Always been described as shy and quiet. I don't like being told what to do. I set high expectations for myself and get upset when it turns out differently. Sometimes I feel like I have to hide some negative parts of my personality to be well liked because I'm afraid of someone perceiving me differently or even hating me.

5. Sometimes I get I hunches of random things like what that person is going to say or what's going to happen even without any evidence or even recalling past experiences and is often right.

6. I have a tendency to connect 2 random things that don't seem to have any relevance to one another. I also have problems finishing things I've started because I would get distracted or start procrastinating.

7. I'd say that my grades were average except for a few subjects I was interested in but fortunately I was able to pass my finals. English, Science and Art was my strongest subject. My weakest subject in school is Maths, it's not that I hate it. I've tried hard to understand but I just can't. Definitely not a gifted kid.

8. Not the best with memories and memorising things in general. Plus I hate it. Because of that, I'd write things down on paper to avoid forgetting. Such as friends' birthdays or assignments. Hobbies include reading, learning a new language, drawing and writing fictional stories. I get impatient with inefficiency and throw out unnecessary stuff in my room.