Hi guys back in the day I bought a Faze Scuf controller for the XBOX, I loved it.
As today im on PS5 and with all the cods coming back I would love a scuf again, it’s been so long.
Which scuf do u love and why?
Today we’re gathering for a great invasion on the fire nation, with a eclipse the fire benders are powerless.
I want to keep it short because my head is maybe making it bigger that it is. I have had depression for about 8 years in episodes but im from a family we just don’t complain and go on.
2 years a ago I tried living on my own and in about 3 weeks i didn’t knew what had happened I had horrible social anxiety and started isolating. When the doorbell rang my heart would be on 130bpm.
I did go back to my mom to live there bacause the hiring contract was only for 6 months just to try living on my own. I did recovered for 85% of the anxiety. The depression was still on background and sometimes really bad. And would go away sometimes.
Now I bought my own house at 23 years old. Things are different now I have learned and now it’s fully my house. but I have a scar on my soul of this experience. I’m perfectionistic but I’m so used to this that i don’t even know how feeling otherwise can be feeling. I have good days sometimes tho, and that makes me think see you don’t need help.
I have difficulty talking about it, I’m always tired, social activity’s feel so exhausting. I have no bright feeling of future and feel like I am the only one experiencing this in my circle. I would like to try maybe an SSRI to get stabler, but I know I prob need to be in the state that I was in that 6 months to get that that day or I’m just making the problem smaller.
I’m bit feared and feel a lot of resistance in therapy bc of shame and I don’t think I will talk about it there, maybe after some time. If someone thinks seeing smth about me that I don’t feel good that i get angry and I think that will happen in therapy too. I’m just in denial it think, and don’t know why.
At this exact moment I’m feeling okay. Not very good but it’s doable. I will move in a 1 or 2 months and don’t want to get at this hell again. Last week I had again anxiety and that was now a time ago I had that last. I couldn’t get out of bed I rarely eat something because I have no appetite.
What should I do?
Do I need to wait before it gets out of hand to get medication?
Do i just try to see if this living experience is gonna be better with a chance I’m falling in that black hole again? Because it’s now a new house that’s really mine.
Talking to my GP is gonna take a lot of energy and resistance and maybe some anger and denial because I’m functioning.
I rarely go to a GP.
Thanks for ur time.
I want to keep it short because my head is maybe making it bigger that it is. I have had depression for about 8 years in episodes but im from a family we just don’t complain and go on.
2 years a ago I tried living on my own and in about 3 weeks i didn’t knew what had happened I had horrible social anxiety and started isolating. When the doorbell rang my heart would be on 130bpm.
I did go back to my mom to live there bacause the hiring contract was only for 6 months just to try living on my own. I did recovered for 85% of the anxiety. The depression was still on background and sometimes really bad. And would go away sometimes.
Now I bought my own house at 23 years old. Things are different now I have learned and now it’s fully my house. but I have a scar on my soul of this experience. I’m perfectionistic but I’m so used to this that i don’t even know how feeling otherwise can be feeling. I have good days sometimes tho, and that makes me think see you don’t need help.
I have difficulty talking about it, I’m always tired social activity’s feel so exhausting. I would like to try maybe an SSRI to get stabler, but I know I prob need to be in the state that I was in that 6 months to get that that day.
I’m bit feared and feel a lot of resistance in therapy bc of shame and I don’t think I will talk about it there, maybe after some time. If someone thinks seeing smth about me that I don’t feel good that i get angry and I think that will happen in therapy too. I’m just in denial it think, and don’t know why.
At this exact moment I’m feeling okay. Not very good but it’s doable. I will move in a 1 or 2 months and don’t want to get at this hell again. Still experiencing tiredness sometimes anxiety and depressed episodes.
What should I do?
Do I need to wait before it gets out of hand to get medication?
Do i just try to see if this living experience is gonna be better with a chance I’m falling in that black hole again? Because it’s now a new house that’s really mine.
Talking to my GP is gonna take a lot of energy and resistance and maybe some anger and denial because I’m functioning.
I rarely go to a GP.
Thanks for ur time.
Hey if anyone needs help or wants to do the dlc Easter eggs im up. I can do all of them with my eyes closed even speedrunning on revelations, der eisendrache, shadows of evil and origins.
Can give RK5 to u if u need.
Hit me up.