Surrender
I'm just so tired of trying to heal. I'm tired of nervous system work, new techniques, better mindsets, watching my thoughts, regulating, breathing differently, doing another exercise, finding another pattern to work on. I'm tired of constantly wondering if there's still something I'm doing wrong. Honestly, I just want to let go. I don't want to do anything anymore. I don't want another technique, another practice, another thing I need to work on. I just want to surrender. Let go. That's it. And I don't mean give up on life or lose hope - but just let go. Maybe that's exactly what my nervous system needs. To simply stop trying to get healthy. To stop doing things to somehow make myself better. To stop trying to improve my mindset, my attitude, the way I think, or whatever else I'm supposedly meant to improve. Maybe if I just stop trying to heal and stop trying to change anything, my nervous system will finally realize that it's safe and then healing can happen on Its own. Maybe l'll still meditate or do some parts work occasionally when I genuinely feel like it. But honestly most of the, I just don't want to do anything anymore. I just want to let go, und do the best with my life that I have in front of me I have ME/CFS, MCAS and migraines, and I'm wondering: Has anyone actually recovered through surrender? Through simply stopping the constant effort to heal, accepting what is, and letting go? Or do you know someone who has?