u/ThrowRA-wonderful

i recently made two new friends who are the same age as me, both 20yo boys. I’m a 20yo girl. I have a fwb relationship with one of them but the friendship is a big part of it.

the problem is, neither of them ever text me back. i’ll either get left on delivered for 12-24 hours, or it’ll just be dry texts. and they never text first. with the friend (not the fwb) we used to text pretty often but now it’s been weeks. we all get along great in person, we hang out once a week or less. we always have fun and it’s always a great time.

the thing is, in addition to the texting thing they never ask about me or my life ever. if i didn’t volunteer information and be obnoxious about my life they wouldn’t know a damn thing about me. no follow up questions when i share personal stuff either. is this just a boy thing? or are they just assholes who are probably using me. i’m starting to feel like they’re just my friends because i have sex with one of them.

the thing is, my biggest ick is not feeling wanted. because if im not wanted then its easy for me to walk away. i feel like im almost to that point now. the only thing stopping me is the fact that we all get along so good when we actually hang out in person. it’s so damn frustrating.

edit: i forgot to add the reason this post is in the sub- they’re really my only friends and i’m starting to feel unwanted by them. but i’d rather be lonely than not wanted. but im scared to be alone.

some positions just don’t work with my anatomy. at first i thought it was because i had an inexperienced partner but now im with someone more experienced and we still have difficulties?

so what’s physically happening is it works great when we’re laying down (if im on top or hes on top) but other positions that require one or both of us to be sitting upright it just doesn’t work. like he always goes for the wrong hole or i can’t get it in because the angle is wrong. don’t even get me started on reverse cowgirl. i think i almost broke his dick in half. and doggy??? i have to break my back and barely breathe so i don’t move or it won’t work. is this normal???? it could just be that im not flexible but damn

any tips on how to make these work would be appreciated! for reference i’m about 5 4 and he’s about 5 11.

i recently graduated nursing school at 19. a huge moment, right? my family keeps making jokes that they’re scared for my future patients and that i must’ve cheated my way through school. or they joke that i don’t have enough compassion to be a nurse and im just there for money and a good schedule. they are nice about it sometimes, but that doesn’t matter when they’re making me doubt myself and my abilities. my best friend makes jokes too but she said these exact words talking about me to someone “she thinks because she graduated that she knows everything” when im just trying to help her after she does some risky things with her medications.

i’m just really down because there’s only one person in my life who actually believes in me and never jokes like that. he’s so genuinely supportive when everyone (people at work and school) tells me that i’m not cut out for the specialty i want to go into.

i work at a hospital and this morning i was rushing through my morning vitals because i had a heavy patient load with half of my patients in precautions. so usually i do the precaution ones last because they take longer with the ppe and sanitizing equipment between rooms.

well, this morning I guess i forgot to get vital in a room. I remember I was going to circle back around to the pt room because they were in the bathroom. but i guess i got distracted and forgot to go back.

a few hours later they got discharged but on the way down they passed out. and the whole discharge decision was based on the most recent set of vitals… which was done by night shift!!! i know it’s also the nurses responsibility to double check but i graduate nursing school in a month and im beating myself up about it because i should know better and be more organized.

i just needed to vent a little bit. the rest of the shift i just felt defeated and depressed and angry at myself. but no one mentioned anything about the vitals except for the nurse to see if i did them that morning.