u/Timely_Budget_7084

like i have been addict since 14 year old i am 20 now i have a girlfriend i have reduce a little bit like 8 month ago but since 2 week i watch all week like i watch it all day and 3-4x per day so i wonder if i can cause me to have less desire to initiate sex with my girlfriend or enjoy it because i love her so much she so beautifull etc but we have sex i can feel detached or like not here in the moment and have no desire to continu even if i am attract to her and love her :(

so does porn can cause to be have less libido or less be interest for sex etc

My girlfriend and I have been together for three years, living a three-hour drive apart. Two or three weeks ago, everything was fine, except I was having doubts about my feelings for her due to the distance—even though things went great whenever we saw each other on weekends. I’m not someone who misses people much; I don't really miss my family or friends, and I don't miss my girlfriend in that way either, though sometimes I wish she were there with me when I’m doing an activity, having a bad day, or feeling stressed. Sometimes I just want to be in her arms. Also, sometimes she wants eggs in the morning; I don't really feel like making them, but I do it anyway because I love seeing her happy and smiling.

But since last Thursday, I feel like I don't love her—like I’m not looking forward to seeing her, yet at the same time, I *am* looking forward to it. I keep questioning whether I still love her. I spend my days online looking for signs of whether I love her or not; sometimes the feeling comes back and I want to see her, and I know deep down that I do love her. Also, this morning she called me by a nickname I like, and I smiled, but I didn't feel love or happiness :( The same thing happened when she said she was proud of me—I smiled proudly, but I didn't feel anything. Right now, I feel neutral about the fact that we’re seeing each other on Friday :( but I *do* want to be with her. I don't understand. I just got off a call with her and I was happy; I was asking about the exam she took and was genuinely interested. I don't get it :( I don't want to break up or realize that I don't love her and if you ask me i would take care of her if she sick etc i would say say directly

so i have adhd and a girlfriend that i love very much i love having sex with her but less this time because i am on citalopram

so in the past i would have sometime hyperfixate on male friend like i would like to pass time with him and play with a lot i remember not wanting to kiss him or them i would jsut like to play a lot with them like i invite a friend 2x time for sleep at my home in differente bed and i would have no desire to culdding him etc and the morning i was like excited and wanting to him to leave because i would like to have alone time and etc i would not think of him or them all the time i am just scare that this hyperfocus or obsession mean i am gay in denial even if i love my girlfriend and all i wanted in the past was a girlfriend like other boys not in a social pressure i was just sad to not have a girlfriend and being happy or offer her flower like other boy was doing

so i have adhd and a girlfriend that i love very much i love having sex with her but less this time because i am on citalopram

so in the past i would have sometime hyperfixate on male friend like i would like to pass time with him and play with a lot i remember not wanting to kiss him or them i would jsut like to play a lot with them like i invite a friend 2x time for sleep at my home in differente bed and i would have no desire to culdding him etc and the morning i was like excited and wanting to him to leave because i would like to have alone time and etc i would not think of him or them all the time i am just scare that this hyperfocus or obsession mean i am gay in denial even if i love my girlfriend and all i wanted in the past was a girlfriend like other boys not in a social pressure i was just sad to not have a girlfriend and being happy or offer her flower like other boy was doing