I have no idea what I’m doing.
Did stand for the first time and bombed like i should, it sucked but it was also a rush mixed “holy tits that was uncomfortable” and i absolutely wanna do it again. now i have no idea how to write jokes and i don’t plan on asking (i searched the subreddit,enough people asked) and although i don’t make enough to live alone in NYC and have random OMFG what have i done with my life because im in my late 30’s with no career. But doing open mics feels right. I haven’t fell this good about something since i joined the Marine corps back in my early 20’s. I haven’t fell zero desire to try n make this into a I’m gonna get famous thing (there’s no way that’ll ever happen) but if i some how end up getting good enough to pay rent doing this then then to me i made it. Although i doubt that’ll happen since im starting off late in this….. im pretty high right now and super forgot what I was trying to write here…..anyways it sucks being poor sucks but doing open mics are awesome and it feels like i found my thing even though nothing will probably come out of it.