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Welp I finished pep yesterday and today’s the big day! I tested on the 21st day and was negative. I am super nervous

We dated for 6 months and I fell in love with her and she broke up with me 3 times. Over a month I’ve digested it and quickly moved on realizing that the relationship wasn’t healthy. Today she texted me can we be friends and every fiber in my body is saying absolutely not. You discarded me like trash and went on bumble asking for threesomes a week later. I’m seeing someone else causally and im happy with it. But another direction pulls me also. What would friends even look like? Probably her just calling whenever she needs an emotional punching bag

I’m 30M and have been seeing a 22F for about two weeks. The chemistry is really good, but we’re obviously still getting to know each other’s personalities and figuring each other out. We’re both still in that stage where we’re putting our best foot forward and essentially marketing ourselves a little.
That said, we have surprisingly similar life outlooks, interests, lifestyles, and even somewhat similar backgrounds. I can also tell she likes me quite a bit from the way she looks at me and acts around me.
I’m also seeing someone else casually right now, so I haven’t committed to either person. I know I want a family and a serious long-term relationship, and I don’t want to waste anyone’s time, get deeply invested in something incompatible, or hurt someone because I avoided an important conversation.
I’m not expecting a 22-year-old to have her entire life figured out, but I also don’t want to ignore the potential life-stage difference between 22 and 30.
When should I bring up the bigger-picture stuff—marriage, kids, long-term relationship goals, etc.? Is it too early after two weeks, or is it better to have a general conversation sooner rather than later so neither of us gets unnecessarily invested?

I had an incredibly intense dream about my ex last night, and I’m still trying to understand what it says about how deeply I loved her. We’re both biracial, which is why the setting of the dream felt especially strange.
In the dream, we were living together in this bizarre Nazi-controlled world. Somehow, biracial people were accepted, or at least certain biracial people in higher positions were. I don’t think the historical details themselves were really the point. The world just felt incredibly hostile and dangerous, but somehow none of that mattered because I had her. We were together in this terrible world, and that was enough.
Then she was taken away and ended up in jail. I had no money, no resources, and I didn’t even know exactly where she was. I was trying to figure out which county she had been transferred to, trying to find ways to get money to her, and at one point I was even trying to break into the jail to get to her. No matter how impossible it became, I kept looking for another way to reach her.
What really got me when I woke up was realizing that I never questioned whether I would go after her. I just did. I’ve heard people say things like “I’d take a bullet for them” or “I’d die for my family,” and before her I never really understood what people meant. With her, I finally understood it. I loved her so deeply that doing anything for her didn’t feel dramatic or sacrificial. It just felt natural.
The difficult part is that this relationship also involved a lot of emotional pain, and I believe there was trauma bonding and psychological/emotional abuse involved. That’s what makes this so confusing. How can I have loved someone so intensely, felt like I would protect them against the entire world, and at the same time have been so deeply hurt by them?
I don’t think the dream necessarily means I should be with her. If anything, I’m starting to wonder if it was my brain showing me just how powerful the attachment was. I’ve never experienced love like that before. Even in a world that was basically hell, my mind still made the choice to find her.
I guess I’m struggling with the fact that something can be both incredibly beautiful and incredibly damaging at the same time. I genuinely loved this woman with everything I had, and I’m only now beginning to understand how much that love affected me.

Just found out that I had high exposure with someone who has hiv. All I know is that they have been taken art inconsistently over 7 months if at all from the first couple months. How fucked am I. Insertive anal started PEP at hour 40. Tivicay and Trucada.

I hate that I ever loved you. She used every ounce of love I had. All the nights I waited 2 plus hours in the parking lot for her to get off her RN shifts after my workdays. Giving your residents sparklers for them to enjoy the 4th of July only for you to tell me I’m the bad guy for going home after waiting 3 hours.All the drives I did after working an hour and a half away. Helping her purchase a new car and the car appointments I did for her cause she had work, all the love and care I gave her after emotional and physically abusive relationships. The money I spent so we could spend more time together for dinners. The places we took each other, San Francisco and Hocking Hills. All my time I gave you. Updating my house in a hurried schedule so u would feel comfortable. All the times u called and I listened , every night about work for over an hour straight sometimes two. All the times u couldn’t listen to my problems for for more than 5 minutes. I hate you. You used me for everything I had. Two weeks later I find you on bumble(to each their own so am I) asking for threeesomes and all the accountability you dodged. Go to church, go to the gym, take care of your MS sister. It won’t matter. You’re not a good person attacking my character, saying I embarrassed you, saying u want different things because you have unresolved mommy issues. You’re an Agent of Chaos and you thrive on it. You’ll always feel hollow inside but so will I with what I gave and didn’t give back only for you to walk out like I was nothing. If there’s a red flag, don’t ignore it. There’s a reason. I hate you so much but I love who you could’ve been to me. You are the reason I don’t believe in love anymore and I’m 30 years old

If you’re feeling nervous just know the CDC has published an article stating it has found no seroconversions as of late when modern regime has been taken correctly. I am terrified but I have hope and strength. I took mine at the 56 hour mark after a known hiv positive person. I’m terrified but I’m praying

https://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/volumes/74/rr/rr7401a1\_appendixb.htm?utm\_source=chatgpt.com

30, 5”9 190 lbs, male on pep. Have u ever seen a pep failure when taken correctly. I had a know hiv exposure and took pep 56 hours after exposure.

Does Pep truly actually fail if adhered to and taken within a 72 hour timeframe? I truly can not find any meaningful literature besides reports that out of thousands of people only 1 or 2 truly failed and that’s them not even being 100 percent positive about it