Got an email from the recruiting team at google that they’re putting together a packet to send to the engineering review team, then if that goes well I will move forward to team matching.
Does this mean I passed the interview and I’m being passed off to the hiring committee stage? Or is it that they’re still reviewing my feedback ?
For context, I’m currently working J1 fully remote. Have an interview coming up for J2 that I’m confident I’m going to nail. When would be a good time to freeze my TWN? Should I do it after they finish up the background check and send the offer letter ? Should I do it before ?
I am just getting into OE and never done anything to my records.
Saw on there some folks saying that they prefer to have one contract role and one W2 role because it’s less risky. What do they mean by that? Has anyone successfully managed two W2 jobs ?
Thanks
27F here. I am genuinely battling with severe depression because of my hEDS symptoms. I’ve honestly even had some suicide ideations due to the lack of progress.
Growing up I always knew I was different in the way my body looked and functioned. Although, it never really gotten in the way of me living my life. I graduated college. I hit the gym regularly. I could lift heavy weights. I was fit and healthy and strong. I could work for 14 hours straight. Sitting. Standing. You name it. Body had zero pain!
Fast forward to May 2023. Covid finally got me after being careful for so long. It kicked off serve dysautonomia. At my worst, I couldn’t sit or stand for more than 15-20 mins at a time without needing to change positions. The pain was severe. I started to get so sick that I couldn’t eat. I lost all my muscle mass and core strength and my body became my living nightmare.
After a lot of time investing in expensive Pilates, going to the gym, walking, buying a body braid, peptides you name it. I’ve managed to get better, but I am not even back at like 50% of the capacity that I used to be. I can’t work on my computer for more than 3 hours a day. If I exercise, even a 30 min walk, I flare up. I have constant brain fog. I can’t hear my self think. I can’t focus because the pain is so bad. I’ve been using THC and CBD to self medicate because no provider takes me seriously.
Additionally, all providers who treat hEDS are always booked in my area. I either have to deal with gaslighting or waiting 3-4 months just to talk to someone only to get hit with an insane price tag for their services.
All my spoons go to trying to just function. And not only is it not efficient, I feel like my body hates me. I can’t accomplish anything. I can’t enjoy my hobbies.
Is there Hope ?
TW: sexual assault and major depression
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Been with boyfriend for about 5 years. We had a rough patch around our 2 year anniversary. I did some terrible things after I was sexually assaulted (by someone else at work). I had a lot of trauma after being raped multiple times by someone who was an authority figure. I am a female engineer who was the only woman at the office. He was my mentor and someone I thought I could trust to guide me. Him and my boyfriend also had worked together for 8 years at one point. He was the last person I thought that would do this.
I hid it from him because I was scared. He also spiraled when he found out about what was happening to me. He wanted to help and I didn’t let him. It kept going on until I switched jobs. I couldn’t afford to quit because I was paying medical bills for a parent who had gotten into a severe accident and had no insurance.
No I didn’t report it. I had a less severe incident occur at another company and when I reported it nothing happened. Not only that, but my entire team gave me the silent treatment and called me a liar. I eventually had to quit that job. I didn’t want to go through that again.
I eventually ended up quitting this job too because I got another offer. But, life wasn’t going well for both of us. We broke up so many times and got back together. It was as toxic as you can imagine.
Fast forward a couple of months after we’re finally stable, our sex life dies. I discovered that he developed a raging porn addiction and was attracted to girls with bigger breasts. I looked nothing like the girls he watched. He said that this was on purpose to try to forget the pain. That broke my heart.
He shared that this was how he was coping with everything that had happened. Again more fights. More yelling matches almost daily. 6 months of daily rejection whenever I tried to initiate intimacy. It broke my heart. He started to checkout completely. So did I. We should have broken up. I really really wish we did.
Eventually, he even had an emotional affair with a coworker, that broke my heart. I decided to forgive him. Because even though what he did sucked, I knew that he cared about me with his actions. He always made sure I was physically okay to the extent that he could. It was a one time thing under extremely stressful circumstances. I felt like we could get over it. We’re not perfect, shit happens right?
It’s been 4 years since the last assault incident. We both have gone to therapy. Couples therapy too. Worked through a lot of things, but not all of it. Our relationship is somewhat healthy. We communicate. We address issues, we work as a team. But even after all this work and effort I am still in a lot of pain. He is too. I can tell. Our sex life never really recovered to how it was in the beginning. I do love him. And he loves me. We both don’t want to break up, but existing together still hurts. We remind each other of that pain. That was such a dark time for both of us.
In a final attempt to regain some semblance of control for the both of us, I booked a surgery date for a breast augmentation. I won’t lie, I like the appeal of having bigger breasts. I feel like it would help my confidence. But I’d be lying if i said it was completely for me. It’s more like a 30/70 split right now. The only time he gives me sexual attention is when my breasts are bigger during my luteal phase. It’s the only time our relationship feels “normal.” I look forward to my luteal phase every month because of this. That’s very sad I know.
After my rape occurred, I fell into serve depression and lost a lot of fat. I dropped 40 lbs. I was 5’3 and 88 lbs. I was so skinny that I accidentally broke some bones. I’m in better health now, but I’m not as attractive or as fit as I was before the incident.
I completely lost all my breast fat during the weight loss. I feel less feminine. I completely lost my touch with my own sensuality. I have not worked through all of the shame of my rape. I wanted to fight back. But he was bigger than me and my body just froze up each time until he was done. Part of me wants to replace every body part my rapist touched. So I thought that maybe doing the surgery would also help with that.
I am hoping that getting the breast Aug will not only help our sex life, but also help me get some confidence back. I’m scared. I’m also excited.
I’m in immense grief because of everything that’s happened to me. I still have weeks where I don’t leave the house at all. I’m scared to go out into the world without my boyfriend protecting me. I walk around with a heart filled with pain and agony. I don’t try to hide my sadness because I simply cannot. I am broken beyond belief.
Before my rape, I was a bubbly extroverted person. I made friends everywhere I went. I was full of life and excited about the future. I was proactive about life. I made vision boards. I went after my dreams. I went to the gym and Pilates. I had abs! I look at pictures of my old self and feel so much awe at what she was able to accomplish.
Now, I don’t leave the house because I am scared of the world. I’m scared of being raped again. I see danger everywhere. I got a work from home job and only interact with my boyfriend and coworkers. I don’t reach out to friends because I don’t want to burden them with my pain.
I also used to be very smart. After my rape, I was prescribed a heavy dose of benzos that completely fried my brain. It ruined my life, but it helped me cope at the time. But, I have no memories of the entire time I was on them. Not only did I experience severe memory loss, but I also experienced skill regression. I have really bad recall now. Furthermore, my technical and critical thinking skills are garbage. I am thankful I am not important at work, because if I was I would be fired by now.
I know I’m deeply broken. I read stories about people who had this entire world shattered and they were able to eventually alchemize that pain into something that changed their life for the better. I hope that will happen to me one day. I know there’s things I can do to feel better. I’m not there yet. I still have a lot to work through.
I am genuinely so scared to post this. Thanks for reading friends.
Currently prepping for Google L4 onsite. Looking for some to do practice interviews with!
Have people treated you differently? Do you feel more sexualized ? What was the psychological journey like ? Do you have back pain ? What do you wish you knew before you got them done ?
I have a virtual screening in a couple of days. The issue is if I pass, I won’t be able to take time off work to fly out for the onsite. I don’t live near a Google office so my guess is that they will have to fly me out to SF or NY.
If virtual onsite isn’t possible, I won’t be able to take time off work due to the craziness of on call and some family circumstances. Should I bother with the round or try again next year?
TLDR: can’t fly out for google onsite. Has anyone had a virtual onsite recently ?
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