u/Traditional_Form_620

Basically i went through trauma and it fucked up my voice so for the last 7 or so years (im 21 now) and it made it sound hoarse, weirdly pitched, weird-sounding in general and it tensed up my throat and other muscles as well

I genuinely just wasted my high school years because of this bullshit

Is there any singular person on this subreddit that has this problem and can tell me what they're doing about it or anything like dude i genuinely dont even know wtf to do or say, im so fcking pissed off because i missed out on a crucial part of my life and so many other opportunities, and not to mention how people genuinely think im doing this shit on purpose or something, i cant make a fcking friend bcs of this bullsht bro

I know it cant be solved in 1 night and that's fine, but im deadass so tired of this bullshit bro, somebody here gotta know at least something

And please dont just say "go to a professional doctor" okay, i don't live in a place where that sht is common or available for this type of situation and ive already been to pretty much everything anyways

Basically i went through trauma and it fucked up my voice so for the last 7 or so years (im 21 now) and it made it sound hoarse, weirdly pitched, weird-sounding in general and it tensed up my throat and other muscles as well

I genuinely just wasted my high school years because of this bullshit

Is there any singular person on this subreddit that has this problem and can tell me what they're doing about it or anything like dude i genuinely dont even know wtf to do or say, im so fcking pissed off because i missed out on a crucial part of my life and so many other opportunities, and not to mention how people genuinely think im doing this shit on purpose or something, i cant make a fcking friend bcs of this bullsht bro

I know it cant be solved in 1 night and that's fine, but im deadass so tired of this bullshit bro, somebody here gotta know at least something

And please dont just say "go to a professional doctor" okay, i don't live in a place where that sht is common or available for this type of situation and ive already been to pretty much everything anyways

Basically it's like i just panic and freeze out of literally nowhere and can't speak clearly, so me answering back is borderline impossible or i just murmur something stupid and make myself look worse

And imagine that kind of thing happening every single day for the last 7 years

And nobody ever gives a fuck

Need help

Need help

Rn

What do i do

So like yea

Lowkey looking to like take the bus somewhere far away and just go

Where my friends at bro

Broooooooooo if only I didn't lose my friends 7 years ago and like people weren't always on my ass about everytthing, yooo that would've been tuff

So like pretty much every day is the same because of this trauma

So like yea

So like i got trauma from before i guess

Like idk hahhaahhahwhwhwhwhwh

It's like people don't really give a fuck until it's too late

I don't really know where else to post this so yea

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I'm 21 years old right now and i've never had a girlfriend before and it just makes me feel bad and super lame

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The reason is because I lost my friends as an early teenager and that screwed me over a lot so I never actually got a gf

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Is there anyone else around my age who never had a gf? At least it would make feel better knowing I'm not the only one

So basically my brain made a coping mechanism where I would not really be focused to the person talking to me, or I would just be really slow and not really 100% focused on the conversation, so at the end it makes me seem weird and I often have to repeat myself because I'm not actually addressing the person that I'm talking to

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The reason my brain made this coping mechanism is because I was often embarrassed and confronted by people, but it's genuinely just making things worse

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Does anyone else have this problem?