u/UnfairViolinist3079

So it's finally time to post my very first romanticized life post, as my account says.

1/8/26

This week, I planned to get supplements and medicine to help with my health issues, which will improve my daily life since I barely function

Most importantly, I'm preparing to start my foundation year in a country I’ve wanted to visit and experience the culture for so long. I will also get the health treatments I really need, so not only will I be out of a toxic home where I was abused, neglected, and humiliated, but I’ll also get healthcare. I've been mostly sick in bed and walking around like a zombie for the past 7 years. I'm 21 now, turning 22 in less than a month — that's most of my teenage years and early adulthood gone. I didn't get much besides just existing to fight for my life or deal with extreme trauma every single day.

I did a lot to graduate high school, going through hell to score high grades and choose a major. I did the best I could. Sigh. I'm shaking and tearing up, thinking about what my younger self endured to get the chance. Despite everything, I made it here. I’m at 4 am, eating cake, listening to music, and having tea with milk.

Not only am I planning to study a foundation year and a regular bachelor’s degree, but I also have an opportunity to learn a new language, study/work, and gain experience while I study—practical studying, which I love and thrive at. I also plan to get my master’s degree within the same years, whereas I was only going to pursue a bachelor’s with 2-3 work experiences.

And I have the financial means to support myself.

All in one week. Sigh. Things have grown slowly, but now that I have these opportunities, plus recently meeting a nice person who made my days less dull.

My pretty lucky star \^^. (In case you read this) Hiii, love stalking me much? giggles

I still have my best friend and amazing people around me. Sigh, feeling content.

If someone told me 5-6 years ago—hell, 3 years ago when I graduated high school—that I would have all of this, I would have laughed and spat in their face. Given how back then, I was just waiting to die.

Life works in strange ways, but nothing stays the same. There has to be a day when things get better.

It seems like mine has shown up.

Until next time.

💋

Hehehehe.

2:10pm. Jul/5

Hello, my love,

It's been a while since I wrote something for you, even though you've always been on my mind.

I'm back this time with my coffee. I hope you're having a good evening.

I was thinking about our wedding. I don't even want a wedding, but for the sake of memories, we can have something pretty to look at years after.

What if we do a small, intimate one, just the two of us and a camera? Then, a week or two getaway, if phones weren't necessary to survive, we could have left it behind. Knowing my family, and probably yours too, they'll want at least a party. So how about we host a little, elegant themed celebration to announce our marriage for the people we care about who wish us the best and have fun with them.

What do you think? Instead of a big wedding, we could use that money for multiple honeymoons( travel whenever we have time off), but let's keep calling it honeymoons. i like the term it's warm,fuzzy, and very intimate.

Wouldn't it be better putting the money in honeymoons, custom-made matching jewelry, and a dream home than a big wedding? I'd rather focus on doing things together without stressing about money. I don't even see the point of a big wedding; it seems like it’s just for the guests. Is it worth it? All that we will get many opinions about the decorations, the dress, even the partner choice—people always have something to say. Why would I want people dressed up, eating, dancing, and having fun just to whisper what this person saw in that person to marry them?

It's supposed to be a start for our lifetime. I'd like it to be for us, not the people or fancy things show off. Just two partners living their best moments.

Until next time.

beloved, take care.

Kisses 💋

Age limit: 22-26.

Your local chronically ill gal and not that mentally stable either. So if you have mental issues or trauma, that's something we will bond over, lmao.

About me as a friend✨️✨️

And it would be nice if you had some of these. If not, giving back decent effort is more than enough.

I'm an emotionally intelligent person, which means I will pick up on the slightest change, so expect to be checked on randomly.

Deep conversations at 2am to silly moments, reels or pics of cute stuff, good morning or night texts

I'm an affectionate and expressive person, so if you are cold or aren't expressive, please don't bother reaching out. Also, as we grow close, I would care deeply about you, then maybe get a little obsessed, so there is that.

Overall, I would like to be there for each other, not just to grow in life but to motivate each other to continue. Life sucks going on alone

If you don't know what to say in the introduction, talk about what kind of person you are. Also, add cookie so I know you read the post.

Where can I find friends like me?

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My problem is when I get obsessed with friends/close ppl

I always feel deeply, get effected by their mood, their actions especially if they end up getting hurt its awful i care too much more then they ever show me always the one checking on them, affectionate always expressive, be there on their good and bad days, and being supportive even when I'm doing the absolute worse I don't ask anything from them at first I didn't think much just detached or distanced myself but now it hurts. Yesterday, I had a fallout with a friend over this. I'm almost sure he would do a lot for ppl around him, but never for me, not even the basic checking in or asking.

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Hii, I'm Rain. I have had a terrible night. Actually, the whole week was just horrible. Remember when we forgot our lunch as kids for days? How bad it would mold? That smell is just the same as my week.

I have a headache but am too alert to sleep. It would be nice to talk to someone.

How was your week?

Hello, my love

It's 2:42 a.m. 6/2/26

Guess what I'm having? As usual, I have warm chocolate, but this time, it is a different brand than the one I drink. Sadly, it's not available.

Perhaps that's why I stopped writing for a while now; it's not just because life has been treating me a little too mean lately. It's getting hard to find a reason to wake up each day...

Anyways that's not why I'm writing to you tonight. There is a thought that kept playing in my mind all day, so I had to ask:

Will you let me leave pretty marks all over you? Wherever I want? However, I please?

I wonder how far you will let me go

I would like us to be the most filthy versions of ourselves with each other.

Not just sexually.

Will you listen to me mumble about something random I liked? Even if it's silly?

Some days, I can be quite sensitive other days, mentally I won't be as present. I can't help it

Will you keep up with it?

Will you be able to keep up with me?

Not just the pretty sunny days but also through the quiet, rainy days as I will do for you?

Today has been one of those strange days where I slept on and off. I'm not sure what I did when I was up, as my mind was absent during times like this. I'm going to be quiet as much as I can to eat chocolate cake and cuddle under the blankets on the couch.

I hope that's enough.

Take care, beloved

Until next time

Kisses 💋

Stabbing myself urge is bad sigh I'm mad why do I have to live this miserably I'm basically locked up for the past 3 years funny its like I have lived anything before that anyway its must be nice to be healthy and not stupidly chronically il