u/Usual_Strain2666

I really been dogged out and lost my job.. which in all my checks bounced and I was never paid… been dashin yet my car needs oil change. Had an interview today.. said a few days until I know if I got the job. I need dog food, puppy food to be exact. like that’s it. I used majority of what I had saved alone for rent and all my bills so I didn’t rip myself bald all month. I don’t have a support system due to my family not being healthy. Ion even know how to ask so I won’t, I’ll just leave my cash tag. Can and will return whatever is sent my way.
$Lovergirl0823

She implemented the no contact 4 years ago now lol. I still am in love with her. I’m absolutely content with being just for myself in reservation for her in the next life. I understand why she went no contact, I was a pretty big POS. I’ve been in therapy the last 10 months. I’ve had good emotional growth. I’m yearning for her lol… one specific memory plays in my head.. she knows probably.
*holding phone up to take a picture of her*
“Baby”…..
“What🙄”….. ahhh fuck. Pretty sure that’s the moment I KNEW I loved her, I just wish I was wise enough to really know that.
When I first lost contact, I wrote letters… I still write to her everyday I just don’t send them, or address who I’m writing to. I’ve reached out to her mom, I even traveled all the way back to where we settled and had life together to let her go, she just stays lingering in my bones. I still follow her on Apple music because I’m just curious. That hasn’t been taken away. Idek. I just needed to confess.