u/VacationFlat2071

Its a weird feeling i get all the time and wanted to see if maybe others feel the same way, this feeling really depends on the day but alot of times ill think that i can probably find a partner if i really worked on it but there is something deep down also preventing me from doing so

It maybe be some things that are wrong with me that i subconsciously know would prevent me from finding someone, is it that i know deep down i wont be good enough or is it something else i really don’t know

But what I’ve noticed is that when i get this feeling i don’t feel as sad or depressed, i kind of just feel confused

now that I’m writing this it also feels like a mix of daydreaming and fake hope, is this just a way of the brain coping with being forever alone ? Idk consider this a vent or discussion I’m not really sure what to flair it as

I always read posts and see videos of people talking about their relationship or problems with it or their partners and it makes me think how someone could have a really bad personality or bad habits but their partner would still be obsessed with them, afraid to lose them or willing to ignore the red flags

I saw this post on the dating advice sub by a girl saying that the guy shes been dating told her while they were intimate that he gets the urge to murder someone that turns him on, when she asked him to explain he said its just a murderous rage

Now to me this sounds crazy, but she is wondering if thats a red flag or shes wondering if he means it or not etc… but this really made me think.. are we too normal for dating ? Do people like to be in relationships with someone with an “edge”

It is very weird to me because it seems that people who suffer with getting into relationships usually try their best to impress someone but can be called a weirdo or friend zoned or just simply rejected but you have someone who gets a murderous rage when turned on and the woman isn’t sure what to think about it

Do people on here think they would feel better if there is something wrong with them physically making them stay alone forever and stopping them from finding someone ?

Or would it be better if you know that you’re perfectly fine and would make a great friend/partner but your environment or specific situation forces you to remain alone ?

Im not sure how everyone is going to view what im about to say, but the advice such as not telling your future partner about HPV history or not being celibate kind of makes me want to throw up

I dont know why i feel this way but i also feel obligated to tell anyone I’m going to have sex with and if i understand correctly if someone ever had HPV there will always be a chance to infect the other person even if chances were slim, this idea makes me sick and i feel like i have to force myself to remain celibate forever

Anyone else feel this way or am i going crazy ?

I have been thinking about my life and came to the realization that i have always had this feeling inside me since i was very young that I’m going to end up alone and that always scared me

And whats weird is that i have made some bad decisions that go against my beliefs and values and the consequences of those decisions force me to be alone now. during that time it felt like i was numb then now just woke up and realized that i am actually going to be alone forever whether i like it or not.

Part of my life feels like my body was being controlled by a different me , and that person was doing everything it could to stay alone to make sure the old me never got hurt, and that ended up hurting even more…

I feel like this virus might be the final sign that i just have to stay single forever

I was just an average guy that fell in love with this girl about 10 years ago, it was a bad situation that eventually broke off and we never ended up together or dated and i had never been in a relationship before , i was also waiting for marriage, but with everyone around me having sex including the girl i loved the frustration kept growing and i eventually started hooking up with girls around, i eventually got chlamydia but was treated and decided to re wait for marriage and haven’t had sex since but now years later i got genital warts and suspected to be HPV

Sex before marriage has officially ruined my life, i had always dreamt about having a partner and family and thought my anxiety would be the biggest obstacle, i guess not

Im a stranger in a country i barely know anyone in, with most of the people around me preferring to stick with people of their own kind regardless of them having STI’s or not and i come from a very religious/conservative family so an arranged marriage is out of the question now too

I feel like i have destroyed my life and just wish i had stuck with the values i had before , this post is just to get this off my chest as no one even knows I’m going through this and i just don’t know what to do

I have been reading posts on this sub for a few days now and came to the realization that alot of us on here seem to have some things in common and the two things i noticed the most is that we seem to be Anxious and Overthinkers

And the more i think about these things i realize that maybe if such people did get into relationships it wouldn’t work out the way we think it would and we would just end up lonelier but with the burden of a relationship and for some weird reason this makes me feel better about myself or get some sense of relief

I say this because i imagine myself overthinking every single thing that happens between me and my “future partner” so maybe the same things that are stopping us from being in relationships would be the same things stopping a relationship from continuing even if it did happen

Im not even sure why I’m writing this , just a piece of my mind before i go to bed

I was recently thinking about some stuff and realized that part of whats keeping me single is that i don’t feel i have enough energy to keep chasing after a woman to make sure she stays with me so i just wanted to know from the people in relationships how hard it actually is and whether or not they feel like they have a huge load on their shoulders