Im growing more antsy by the day i plan to just get up and go leave everything behind and live. Live for once i have no plan no anything but i dont think i can take the monotony of live anymore. Say what you want call me stupid or crazy i fucking know. I just want to start living again i wanna be free i wanna be uncomfortable take chances all of it. I just dont know where to start, or where to go. I only have about 7 grand to my name but i just plan on leaving and never coming back and seeing how long i can survive on my own. If you have any ideas or advice please let me know much love

Im growing more antsy by the day i plan to just get up and go leave everything behind and live. Live for once i have no plan no anything but i dont think i can take the monotony of live anymore. Say what you want call me stupid or crazy i fucking know. I just want to start living again i wanna be free i wanna be uncomfortable take chances all of it. I just dont know where to start, or where to go. I only have about 7 grand to my name but i just plan on leaving and never coming back and seeing how long i can survive on my own. If you have any ideas or advice please let me know much love

Im growing more antsy by the day i plan to just get up and go leave everything behind and live. Live for once i have no plan no anything but i dont think i can take the monotony of live anymore. Say what you want call me stupid or crazy i fucking know. I just want to start living again i wanna be free i wanna be uncomfortable take chances all of it. I just dont know where to start, or where to go. I only have about 7 grand to my name but i just plan on leaving and never coming back and seeing how long i can survive on my own. If you have any ideas or advice please let me know much love

Okay so for the past few months I feel like ive realized some things and it's really hard to think about. I feel like a lot of the problems I have with myself like self esteem issues stem from a lot of societal pressures. I grew up in a household that all I was ever told to do from a young age was work. All my dad ever did was work barely ever saw him. But I feel like I attached this burden to myself, always pushing myself in all avenues I was never enough. It was unhealthy; I would have these streaks of working so damn hard and cutting out all my vices and such but then I would get burnout and lose a lot of progress and have loads of shame on myself. But regardless I just feel like a lot of my issues I've had with myself are not my fault. I feel like ive come to the point where I dont fit into society. I'm too aware of everything, I see everything for how it is how superficial everything is how pointless everything is like careers, consumerism, getting married. None of this stuff makes me feel excited for the future as it used to. The only thing that makes me have a fire in my chest and excites me is the idea to just run to go and have no plan and just fucking send it. I've been thinking about just becoming homeless and just seeing how long I survive. I feel like im so stuck in this reality that just hurts me everyday I just work, come home my mind just goes crazy thinking about this and yah. I just want to go man I dont want to plan its such a strong urge and ts all I can think about in my free time. I want to just fucking live for once. but its really strong urge to the point where I feel like I need to act on it but im scared to and its probably not the smartest and I have a feeling this has to due with a lot of poor mental health however I tried everything for mental health I go for walks and stuff daily, workout, eat healthy and I have talked about a lot of this stuff to people I know. any thoughts?

Hey, so im 20 years old living in america and i want out im not really gonna get into reasons but i think you can infer based on how america is. I have only a few thousand bucks saved up and im working full time right now saving to leave but idk where or what to do to survive if i leave. I genuinely never wanna come back and i just wanna survive in nature and figure my life out if anyone has any recommendations or ideas or experiences please let me know i would love to hear feedback. Thanks

Ok so im 20 years old i work everyday doing landscaping and i just have for the past year just been so depressed. I havent been happy and i have had basically everything this world has to offer just last summer i was working a job that i had gotten and was on track to make 120k a year at 19 and i thought this was great i thought this was the answer but after doing this for a couple months i came to the realization that it didnt make me happy i hated working there i had no free time and i was just unhappy. So i ended up coming back to where i used to live and i fell into worse depression i had friends and i had a girlfriend at the time but nothing fulfilled me. I have made good money, had great friends and experienced love. The whole shabang kinda what they say matters in america. But none of which makes me happy. However i have a pull to me i feel like im just living a shell of the life were meant to live as humans. I feel drawn to just leave with the money i have and never work again and survive until i cant anymore. I feel like were so trapped as a society that everyone takes all these things to be so imperative a job and money they take all these things to be real when they are just constructs. I understand if u have kids you basically have no choice. But its hard to see myself having kids when its this hard to be happy myself its an everyday struggle to see purpose for me going to work and everyday im debating quitting. All i want to do is leave leave this town this place and see and do whatever my mind wants and takes me and survive for as long as possible. Curious if anyone else feels this way lmk

Yo so im 20 years old. I just feel like the world is so cooked at this point everything is absolutely fucked. Everywhere you look there’s no avoiding it. Whether its the government, literally the way the towns and stuff are set up especially where i live its just so fucking depressing. And when you look at other countries especially ones like europe the people though poor have more third places everything’s in walking distance and appreciate there lives and the little things more. All things considered i see no point to the corporate america life and capitalism. i see no point to starting a career path or doing any of that shit that i was told to do since a young age. I went to college for a year and after that i started to realize how skewed it feel genuinely dont think most people even living anymore. Humans were meant to explore and live in nature not sit at cubicles and work most of their week for a made up currency out of paper. Its insane to me that people live in this fucking lala land where they watch all these sports and shi celebrating “OH WE WON THE championship”. But with all this considered i feel like all i want to do is go out with a bang, actually experience the world maybe go to Europe indefinitely and see if i survive and if not then shit atleast i was able to live for once. Cause living in america is a shard of life.

Edit: not saying i wanna end my life just saying i want to live it till the fullest till i cant anymore. I understand a lot of people dont like hearing about this kinda stuff im not saying all things are bad in the world hence why i still wanna live and experience it better.