I feel lost, even though I'm where I'm supposed to be?
I'm 30F, grew up in a poor immigrant family, worked really hard to get where I am today: have a job that I like, a loving husband, not really wanting kids (wouldn't want to bring them into this world right now) and am objectively living the life of my dreams my younger self always wanted. But I can't shake a feeling of being lost. It doesn't feel fullfilling on a deeper level anymore. As if everything I once viewed as meaningful all of the sudden is rendered meaningless. I don't know if it is the thought of now just having to autopilot the rest of my life now or that it has more to do with the world that I always admired (Amerika/the west) falling a part. A sense of dread about an uncertain future looms in my mind. Wildfires, inflation, war, moral degradation, civil unrest, AI threatening my job. I just want to escape, but I don't know to where. Even though I am living the life I always wanted?
So much is just changing around me. Everything is going so fast. I just feel a general sense of being lost, and uncertainty about the future... Maybe it's not because of the life I'm living, but because of the current world I'm living that life in?
Am I the only one feeling this?