u/Cosytrap

I’m 17 , and when I see everything on the news , or social medias , I’m wondering if I will be able to have a nice and good future
Ai is starting to spread over everything , and everything feels like slop
Idk if I will have a stable job with it
Idk if I will find someone
The government don’t seem to care about anything
And the climate change is getting worse and over my mind , even if I try to get over it , it come back anyway
I’m only 17 and this is the world I’m going to live in?
Hell no
Idk how can I stop being worried

I’m a 17 F and I never met love
I see younger people having relationships
I see some of my friends having a lot of relationships
I just wanna know what is like to be loved by someone
“Love hit you when you less expect it” yeah , I don’t really believe in that…
Idk
I wanna maybe try dating apps but idk if its really working
Im scared to never find love
(Btw I wanna have kids when I grow up )
Idk what to do

Like in 4 days I’m taking a plane to go to Hawaii ( I’m in France ) but with the situation in my country and the situation rn with the environment, I feel kinda guilty to take the plane at this moment. I feel like it’s going to make the situation worse. Idk how to not be guilty about it.
( I’m 17 btw , I didn’t chose to go to Hawaï , my parents did )

reminder : this is translated from french , im french so maybe i made mistakes here

its only the beginning , like the introduction , the preface

any feedbacks are welcome

in this country full of magic ,three kingdoms exist , the kingdom of the sun : Heliosa

the kingdom of the moon : cendralis

and the kingdom of the elipse : Nyxalis

these three kingdoms lived peacefully for years, the kingdoms od Heliosa and Cendralis was the most dominant kingdoms of all three

after years , nyxalis wanted to grow and be more important than other kingdoms , so Nyxalis declared war to Cendralis and heliosa to reduce their domination

it was a terrible war of 20 years

nyxalis could be defeated by heliosa and cendralis with the price of a lot of victims

such a terrible war couldnt happens again

to avoid it , the kings of héloisa and cendralis created a powerfull spell , a powerful shield (made of sun and moon) to reduce the activities of Nyxalis and protect the people of cendralis and heliosa

for safety , the kings decided to hide the spells books in a far and isolated place , far from the kingdoms , protected by guardians

this story passed down from generations , so people wouldnt forget the origins and know the past

Something that I do a lot is : guilt
For example : when I played a lot TF2 , I felt guilty to not play it for days or even hours and I couldn’t get out of it , until I forced myself to stop thinking about tf2 because it annoyed me
It happened with iron lung movie ( guilt to not make fanart of the movie )
Irl ( like when my brother were in the pool for example and me inside home , I feel guilty )
And rn it’s happening with artfight
Like I feel guilty for not making any attacks on other people and feel guilty to make non artfight art
I could make a list of everything I feel guilty for , but if will be too long
I feel a lot of guilt for a lot of things
(Also another thing is idk how to say no to my family or friends when I dont want to do something . Im overthinking about it)
How can I stop feeling guilty about everything ?

Something that I do a lot is : guilt
For example : when I played a lot TF2 , I felt guilty to not play it for days or even hours and I couldn’t get out of it , until I forced myself to stop thinking about tf2 because it annoyed me
It happened with iron lung movie ( guilt to not make fanart of the movie )
Irl ( like when my brother were in the pool for example and me inside home , I feel guilty )
And rn it’s happening with artfight
Like I feel guilty for not making any attacks on other people and feel guilty to make non artfight art
I could make a list of everything I feel guilty for , but if will be too long
I feel a lot of guilt for a lot of things
(Also another thing is idk how to say no to my family or friends when I dont want to do something . Im overthinking about it)
How can I stop feeling guilty about everything ?