darkwave (and somewhat etherealwave) with more clear vocals and the majestic and/or eerie instruments with the melancholic guitar (idk how else to word it 😭). like these:
Green Velvet by The Shroud
Vision by The Shroud
Sacrifice by London After Midnight
Sparks by Faith and the Muse
Carousel by House of Harm
(no particular spread type, just asked for a straightforward answer)
idk why but i just got hit with a new wave (😍) of wondering if i am the worst person in the world so bad i should abandon all my dreams or whatever. not sure what to do or if i should even continue going on so ofc i asked plastic cards
i asked my higher self what they think i should do and i got the Hierophant, the Page of Wands, and the Lovers.
i asked the universe what i should do and i got the Page of Pentacles, 2 of Cups, and 6 of Pents with 10 of swords. okay that last one is scary so i got a clarifying card and it was 4 of Swords.
i don't know if the universe is telling me to kms or what lmao but i think my higher self is telling me to get more connected to (and passionate about) my religious beliefs (Taoism and some Buddhism) since i've been feeling disconnected and haven't incorporated them into my life as much as i should, haven't been motivated ig. and also to maybe wait until my meeting-my-soulmate spell pays off first before i consider jumping ship. maybe both spreads are telling me that
other than that idk but i'm not in the best mindset to read rn 🥀
i thought more abt it maybe i need to bring myself to a more balanced and grounded place too and weigh the consequences of any potential actions.
idk why but i just got hit with a new wave (😍) of wondering if i am the worst person in the world so bad i should abandon all my dreams or whatever. not sure what to do or if i should even continue going on so ofc i asked plastic cards
i asked my higher self what they think i should do and i got the Hierophant, the Page of Wands, and the Lovers.
i asked the universe what i should do and i got the Page of Pentacles, 2 of Cups, and 6 of Pents with 10 of swords. okay that last one is scary so i got a clarifying card and it was 4 of Swords.
i don't know if the universe is telling me to kms or what lmao but i think my higher self is telling me to get more connected to (and passionate about) my religious beliefs (Taoism and some Buddhism) since i've been feeling disconnected and haven't incorporated them into my life as much as i should, haven't been motivated ig. and also to maybe wait until my meeting-my-soulmate spell pays off first before i consider jumping ship. maybe both spreads are telling me that.
other than that idk but i'm not in the best mindset to read rn 🥀
i thought more abt it maybe i need to bring myself to a more balanced and grounded place too and weigh yhr consequences of any potential actions.
so last week i asked if i would meet a love interest at school, got 2 of Cups with 8 of Pents. alright. today i asked how i would feel after intitially meeting them, got a few cards but what stuck out was 5 of Cups with the Empress after the Magician, which confused me. so i asked what i would regret doing and i got the Wheel of Fortune, High Priestess (both upright), and Justice reversed... so i thought maybe this was me not going with the flow, maybe not understanding my actions fully?
i asked what i should *avoid* doing and got the Knight of Swords with the Tower, the Ace of Swords with the Hierophant, and the 6 of Wands with the Wheel of Fortune. all upright. i'm not sure but i think this means i need to not beso verbally harsh maybe? it doesn't feel intentional because i don't see what i would need to be mean about. i'm also feeling that i shouldn't make assumptions at all and i should not rush anything.
i asked what i *can do* to avoid this. i got 9 of Pents with Ace of Pents, Queen of Pents with the Star, all of those upright, and then 3 of Swords reversed with 6 of Pents upright. so i think i shouldn't reject or turn down this person immediately because i've gotten a few readings before that strongly suggested i would do that and i need to give them the benefit of the doubt. but i still have no clue what this is trying to say?
hello! i've been into darkwave and coldwave goth music for a couple years now (like since i was 15) and at first i wasn't interested in goth clothing but i feel a little differently now though.
like tradgoth, pastel goth, and gothic lolita clothing but most of my wardrobe is nothing of that sort. it's very outdated and a lot of it was from when i was 12 (YES I STILL FIT THINGS I HAD WHEN I WAS 12 BECAUSE I'M A SHORT PERSON FROM THE SOUTH USA). i do have some things i can work with (a semi transluscent over/undershirt black long sleeve shirt with stars and sparkles, another long sleeve black and grey shirt that kinda looks like mist/clouds, a tank top with the moon on it. i also have a black Jurassic Park shirt i might be able to do something with). i'm also gomna do some embroidery on some plain black tank tops of mine but one thing that crossed my mind is that i wasn't sure what to embroider 😭 i thought maybe doing my favorite horror/infection My Little Pony AU but honestly i'm growing out of even the horror side of MLP so now idk
i don't have a lot of the materials used for more advanced DIY i guess. i'm not entirely sure how i can turn my plain hot pink pants (an example) into something gothic. i'm gonna bleach them because i prefer pastel and muted colors though, along with most of my other brightly colored stuff. i know a lot of gothic clothes have a Victorian vibe and i looked up how to make regular clothing frilly and Victorian-Edwardian but most of it requires sewing which i can't do 💀 so any tips are appreciated
so one spiritual lesson i'm here to learn on Earth is coping with other people invalidating my genuine self and simultaneously encouraging me to have beliefs that aren't accurate to my experiences. basically learning how to stand my grand energetically and not doubt myself. i have Saturn in the 1st house if you couldn't tell...
i get invalidated (or simply misunderstood) for literally everythingggggg. but *especially* for having the soul of an alien. you know when i first realized what i was, i went into denial about it because it falls short of human expectation and also cause i wanted to be something else, sometimes i would even think i wanted to have a human soul lol 😭
i accept myself now but obviously not everyone does. i don't need everyone to, but at the same time, it sucks to be misunderstood and talked over by people who don't even try to consider what you're going through. i shouldn't expect people to act specific ways at all, but i think that's what sucks. i wish i lived in a world where people could see past their biases and egos and just see the truth. not saying i see the truth in everything, because i don't and i get wrong a lot, but at least i'm open to something being a possibility before i decide it's either fake or real and i don't just assume because it's fake cause it's fringe, and i don't assume it's right cause it's mainstream. well, most of the time.
i considered doing energy work and maybe a sigil for self-protection but is there anything else i can do?
like if your soul species wears a certain clothing style, do you try to mimic it? or mimic body parts that they have [that humans don't have] like extra limbs or diferently colored skin?
i'm gonna try to DIY some horns, a tail, wings, and webbed fingers for mine and maybe dye my hair red or get red weave on some box braids or something. i don't like having human anatomy so i'd like to make it as comfortable as possible lol
i'm finally getting into DIY because i'd rather not buy stuff (and also cause i need something to freaking do :< ). but i just got hit with a wave of pointlessness because the world is literally starting to catch on fire.
i'm a spiritual person and i believe doing things for myself is good for spiritual growth no matter how bleak the situation, and that having hope brings good Karma in future incarnations. but i still feel kind of drained because i could very well starve to death from crop failure before i even finished my projects.
i'm 16 and i'm supposed to have so much life ahead of me and i have dreams and wishes like i wanna be a nature scientist or a gardener or something and find true love and get my own house and finally not be mentally ill but i often wonder if it will get cut short.
it's 3 feet long (91.5 centimeters) and can wrap around my waist with a few excess inches i'd have to cut off to make it fit me better or have a band to make it adjustable. it's also one sided btw so i can't wear it like a skirt without sewing it to something (i don't like skirts)
i like gothic, cottagecore and lolita fashion. i thought about turning it into a poncho but i don't think it's big enough sadly. i considered turning into a top but it wouldn't have sleeves which is pass for me. i could add it to a shirt i guess but i just don't know what to do specifically, but it's really cute so i wanna use it
i asked if the things that i desire in a relationship are morally bad because i've been worried and anxious and bed rotting like all day and i got the Defuse via Kitten Therapy card in the bottom center lol. ik i should get therapy because i suspect i have moral OCD but part of me thinks i might genuinely be a bad person
i just put that card into my playing card deck and this is the first time it came out. i think maybe i am being encouraged to go ahead and get that uncrossing spell ready lol
i'm not really sure what 4 of Hearts and Attack and Jack of Clubs mean in this context. i guess 8 of Diamonds means i might really try to be good though. maybe the Jack means i'm immature or something. can i get second opinions?
like i know my intrusive thoughts are evidently false, but after dealing with them for about three years, i just still don't feel like i deserve anything good because all this time i've been stressing about how i might be a horrifically bad person that i don't even know how to dissasociate with that idea anymore. i still feel this inherent guilt over just existing because of the fact those intrusive thoughts even came in my head to begin with.
it's getting worse and i don't have any motivation to clean my room and i just don't feel like i deserve to live cleanly. part of me still wonders if i need to check if i'm a good person but i am trying to not do that and i did relapse a few days ago when i asked someone to read my astrology chart to see if i am good/bad. anyway, i just want to know how i can overcome this self-esteem obstacle.
i'm not diagnosed with OCD or anything, i just suspect it, but recovery methods for OCD have been helpful to me thus far. i don't have access to therapy right now because of a complicated legal and financial situation.
idk why it atttacts the worst possible people who don't do anything with their craft except selfish things. i'm technically a witch but i prefer the term Occultist
i'm sorry but you can't force a specific someone to love you with a love spell because that goes against the very definition of love. trying to force your ex to break up with their current partner is not okay. trying to put a curse on someone because they mildly inconvienced you is also not okay. honestly i'm gonna stay out of the community because it's making me paranoid lol
honestly it's just a bunch of people trying to justify how spiritual assault is okay because it's spiritual and not physical. like hello? trying force someone to sleep with you spiritually is just as bad as trying to force someone to sleep with you physically. not to mention all the people who think infidelity is okay just because it happens in the astral realm 🤦🏽
off of Reddit, there's a lot of TERFs in the witch community too and it makes me uncomfortable as a genderfluid person. and a lot of bastardization and approproation and spiritual psychosis.
what i don't understand is why the witch community is even like this. there's way too many people who unironically believe in abandoning morals for the sake of the craft.
i want someone to be interested in my hobbies and silly things i do. i want someone to notice little things about me that i don't notice. i want someone to find me interesting and to understand my worldview even if it is unconventional.
and i wanna find that person interesting too. i want to feel like i'm not settling for less. i want to feel safe knowing they won't do something that breaks my boundaries. i want to appreciate their ugly laugh or ugly smile or whatever. i wanna know all their favorite songs.
i just feel like i'm too "niche" of a person to ever meet someone who fits with me. that either i'm too weird and/or my standards for a romantic relationship are too weird
heya. so i'm planning on doing a spell to find or attract my divine counterpart/soulmate/whatever you wanna call it. i'd like any suggestions on adding, subtracting, or editing any part of the spell, please.
first part is just grounding, centering, and shielding meditation. but i'm gonna first do an uncrossing spell as an initial layer and the ingredients for that will be salt, a white candle, snowflake obsidian, and a sigil carved on a magnolia leaf.
for the actual divine counterpart spell, i'mma raise some energy first with music and dancing. then i'm gonna use some divination cards to represent me and my divine counterpart (2 of Hearts jumped out to represent me and 3 of Diamonds jumped out to represent my DV). i'll also use some lavender leaves, my rose candle and a rose quartz. i plan on doing the spell on the full moon.
i haven't come up with the actual words yet but i'm gonna get there tomorrow. thoughts?
ik the chart can't boldly call you a bad/good person but it can highlight bad qualities you might have though
i don't know many people who are really into the occult so i wanna hear some experiences.
most interesting experience is when i cast an energy-intensive spell without properly grounding or centering my energy, and i experienced the most extreme exhaustion of my life for "no reason." i didn't undereat or undersleep or exercise excessively or anything, yet i was so exhausted all i could do is lay in bed, sleep, and periodically use the bathroom and eat food. that was like two years ago. even during times where i've actually undereaten (like right now lol), the exhaustion still isn't that deep?
what actually got me initially interested in occult was exploring my spiritual nonhumanity and manifestation (although i don't associate with the LOA community anymore for mental health reasons)
i went offlinr for the last few months of 2025. screen time was about 2.5 hours a day and getting progressively lower. got hooked again at the beginning of this year. screen time was like 5 hours a day and now it's at 8.
you are, for your own health, not supposed to stare at a screen for more tham 2 hours a day. i know. social media is a distraction for me because i'm lonely and life feels meaningless and i'm not sure if i should end it all. i know. i'm getting more and more obsessed with digital interactions. i know. i'm losing track of my hygiene, chores, studying, and spiritual journey because i'm too online. i know. blue light and infinite scrolling are harming my sleep schedule. i know. the short term dopamine hits are keeping me stuck in this cycle. I KNOW.
i know i have plenty of books to read, a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle, drawings to draw, parks to walk in, etc. but i just feel like it's meaningless. i feel like i'm meaningless and i don't know how to not be addicted. i don't wanna be like this anymore. please help? any advice at all?
it's not that i don't believe. i just often feel like i might not be strong. a lot of the time when i do spells or rituals, something just doesn't feel right. feels off. it feels like i'm blocked and i just can't do anything but it's usually a quiet feeling so i ignore it.
i was once told my magick is similar to the magick of water, in the sense that water slowly creates rock formations and crystals over time, but it takes so long for anything worthwhile to come out of it. which sucks if that's true
i haven't done a diverse amount of spells in my time. most of them have been clarity spells and bring-true-love-into-my-life spells. so i'm not super experienced. i'm honestly not sure what to think or make of this. i've had psychic dreams and visions so it's not like i have zero spiritual gifts at all, i just don't know why i might be weaker. anything you guys think would be helpful information, thanks.
i'm 16 so i don't expect for anyone to take me seriously of course because adults never fucking do but i really just want a partner right now. i want someone to eat food with and cuddle with and pay taxes with and comb each others hair and hear each other laugh. i give it to the end of this year (maybe 1 year from now idk) before i have an existential crisis and kms bro idec what Karma i get in the next life bc of it 💔
i am homeschooled and getting into public school got delayed for me last night so i literally cannot meet anyone for at least another two months