u/Vast_Ambassador3975

I am currently 18 turning 19 very soon, I live in Oakland California, and I currently attend college at ucsc, I am going into my second year in college for business management and economics. I'm on track to graduating in 2 more years, I want to pick up a trade, specifically wielding, but I don't want to pick up a trade after college.

Right after highschool I was offered to attended a good school for basically full ride, and I didn't want to turn it down obviously a degree is still valuable. Had my sights on becoming a financial advisor after college, but honestly, Ai doing a good job at scaring me away from white collar jobs and the way the world operates (or "system") is rapidly changing. I don't plan on switching to being something like an engineer or a doctor or some crap like that, I am thinking about just obtaining my bachelor's and then going straight into a trade. That is what I was going to do if I hadn't receive the opportunity in the first place anyway.

Is this a good idea? Is it even possible? Let me know please!

I want to play smash bros competitively, but I dont want to go to tournaments. is there a online pc version or something I could play?

you know what started out as some really fun experience turned out to be one of my worst enemies in my life

Basically for the school year of 2025 to 2026 what started me smoking every other month, turned to every other week, then turn to every other day, and long story short, after had smoking so much I noticed how severely behind I truly am. I would say it stagnated me. I’m just now realizing it in April or so how far behind I truly am.

on top of that weed was giving me thoughts and was making me way too self-aware and very very very anxious that I would say damn near for the first three months of 2026. I was full on manic by just most of the thoughts that I were having weren’t even mine.

The only positive thing I see here is that I stopped earlier cause if I kept going, it would’ve genuinely ruined my life. I’ve already stole a year of my life.

Im at this point 2 months clean, and my life is back to normal.

The book atomic habits help me out a lot because it really is just a daily decisions and stuff that you make that ultimately end to my end goal and stuff so basically I just focused on one day at a time and it was great man. It worked out just fine. I would say. never ever touching weed again though what a horrible habit.

you know what started out as some really fun experience turned out to be one of my worst enemies in my life

Basically for the school year of 2025 to 2026 what started me smoking every other month, turned to every other week, then turn to every other day, and long story short, after had smoking so much I noticed how severely behind I truly am. I would say it stagnated me. I’m just now realizing it in April or so how far behind I truly am.

on top of that weed was giving me thoughts and was making me way too self-aware and very very very anxious that I would say damn near for the first three months of 2026. I was full on manic by just most of the thoughts that I were having weren’t even mine.

The only positive thing I see here is that I stopped earlier cause if I kept going, it would’ve genuinely ruined my life. I’ve already stole a year of my life.

Im at this point 2 months clean, and my life is back to normal.

The book atomic habits help me out a lot because it really is just a daily decisions and stuff that you make that ultimately end to my end goal and stuff so basically I just focused on one day at a time and it was great man. It worked out just fine. I would say. never ever touching weed again though what a horrible habit.

I put all my passions and everything I loved doing on hold since I would say about the age of 14-18.

My parents long story short sucked at being a parent, granted they were first generation Americans and came from a very poor country. A lot of things in my life I pretty much had to teach myself, so when i stumbled across self improvement, I was immediately consumed by the content and gurus.

I thought everything that wasnt "bettering myself" was a waste of time. So I gave up things like Video games, watching movies, and tv shows,

and my life quickly became consumed with gym, church, gym church, gym church,

not to mention my faith i believed in at the time & strict parents made it so much worse, i fasted 3/4 of the year (basically i couldnt eat before 3 pm and the diet is similar to pescatarian diet) for most those years, and was forced inside most my weekends.

I just got hit with the reality of being an adult and man, I wish I could be a kid again, nobody told me I would have so much fucking time on earth to restart and try and "improve" myself and do allat bullshit, when I talk to people now about their passions or hobbys and they tell me they got into it when they were in hs, i get so fucking angry, i wish could come home from school and instead of going to the gym and cold showering and doing all that fucking bullshit i coulda just played the game or done me bruh.

I wish I could have been more carefree while I was still a child.

my lust has caused me to do things I thought I would never do in a million years. It had ruined my childhood and now its ruining my adult life. I am making a difference now and have been clean for a few weeks

Now there is only less than a couple weeks left, I wasted most of it. Is it possible to have that experience still in 5 weeks?

my lust has caused me to do things I thought I would never do in a million years. It had ruined my childhood and now its ruining my adult life. I am making a difference now and have been clean for a few weeks