u/Vast_Tip_502

Good morning, I feel that I really need some advice today. To start off, I am autistic and I have a very difficult time wording things in a mature and calm way, especially when I am upset, and I need to confront a friend who hurt my feelings without hurting our friendship. This has been my closest friend for 3 years since I started my job, and he is one of the ONLY people I trust and will actually open up to and don’t have to mask for. But anyways:

Yesterday at work we were talking together like always and i expressed the frustration and upset I was feeling when we were doing a task that involved counting quantities of products that were spoiled and had to be scanned and tossed out (or foods that were just getting close to over date and needed to be donated to FISH). This task was confusing for me involving the different steps I needed to do everything in and after asking multiple people including himself multiple times, nobody would give me a full and helpful explanation of the order I needed to do everything in to keep everything running smoothly. In the end I screwed it up and the frustration of the entire team was passively aggressively directed at me (you know it’s obvious when even ME WITH NO EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE can read a person’s mood).

Back to me trying to explain this to my friend: I expressed in what I was confident was a clear, concise but descriptive way of opening up my emotions of how upset and frustrated I was that i couldn’t get the explanation I needed to finish the task. He brushed me off, he kind of laughed at me and he didn’t even bother to say he was sorry that had upset me, ask me if I was okay, or even offer to explain things in a better way in the future despite that being what I was obviously asking for.
I was super hurt because I never EVER open up and tell people how I “feel” about things, so it took a lot for me to do that. I was left really upset and confused and so i never said anything.

I desperately need advice on how i can bring this up again without seeming silly or immature and especially not rude or petty, but i need closure, I just need him to understand.

Im sorry that this is a lot, i am just distressed. Thank you so much if you read this all the way