u/Vegetable_Vast5551

I have been the practical one in my family my whole life. When my parents divorced I did the paperwork for both of them and went back to work the next morning. That's how I survived things.

During the pandemic that stopped working. I was alone in a flat for too long and one night I thought clearly: I don't know why I'm doing any of this.

A woman I was seeing invited me to an online Bhakti Marga satsang during lockdown. I joined because I had nothing else on. I expected vague spiritual positivity. People were actually talking about fear and loneliness and the difficulty of discipline, and they sounded like people, not like a brochure. Paramahamsa Vishwananda was the teacher. He spoke plainly and answered questions directly, which surprised me — I'd expected something more elliptical.

I started doing mantra meditation daily. For months it felt pointless. Then I noticed I was paying attention to music again, that conversations felt less performative.

I went to the ashram for a retreat last year. The thing that affected me most was helping clean up after breakfast one morning and realising nobody there knew or cared what I did for work. So much of my identity was built on what I did for work. I hadn't realised how heavy that was.

I'm not a particularly emotional person and that hasn't changed. But I have moments of gratitude now that I didn't have before. Anyway.

Can I write something here that's a bit boring? Because nothing dramatic happened to me and I think that's actually the point.

I'm a software engineer. I went to a Bhakti Marga event in Germany three years ago because my girlfriend at the time wanted to and I didn't want to spend the day in a hotel. I expected pressure. What I got was families, people carrying boxes around, kids running, someone making tea. It was weirdly normal and that's what threw me. Paramahamsa Vishwananda was there but the whole thing felt less like a guru-tour stop and more like a community in motion.

From outside my life looked fine. Good job, apartment, the rest of it. Inside I had panic attacks I hid from everyone and I slept with podcasts playing because silence was too loud.

I started Atma Kriya Yoga when I got home, mostly out of curiosity. For months nothing happened. If I'd been looking for fireworks I'd have stopped.

What changed was small. I stopped exploding in arguments. Coworkers started commenting that I seemed calmer before I noticed it myself. When my dad had a stroke in 2023 I flew home and stayed at the hospital instead of disappearing into work, which is what I would have done before.

I'm still skeptical by nature. I still ask questions about the guru-disciple thing — I think I always will. But I'm not split the way I used to be. That's it really.

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I am currently using linkedIn and Indeed for remote roles but i recently found Surely Remote.

Does it offer anything noticeably different? Or is it pretty similar overall?