
Registered at the last minute. Didn't expect Ananda Alai program to affect me like this
I registered just before the registrations closed.
When I first heard about Ananda Alai for refreshing Shambhavi, I thought, "I already remember the instructions and I'm probably doing the practice correctly. Why do I need this?"
But apart from the practice itself, things were not going well. There were some unexpected physical problems and a lot of confusion about different aspects of life. Those things finally pushed me to register.
Day 1
Nothing much happened. The session started and ended. That was it.
(This is just my experience. Others may have had completely different experiences. I'm only sharing what it was like for me.)
Day 2
There was a Sadhguru talk. I had definitely heard it before, but this time it felt completely different.
The words were the same, but they reached somewhere deeper. It wasn't like learning something new. It was more like something I already knew was being seen more clearly.
I hardly slept that night. Not because I was disturbed. Strangely, I wasn't irritated about not sleeping either. There was just a sense of calm.
Day 3
Since I hadn't slept properly, I fell asleep in the early morning and woke up late. I almost skipped the session, but somehow joined the last one.
I'm glad I did.
Again, the talks felt very relevant to where I am right now. It wasn't that Sadhguru was answering my personal questions. In fact, if I had been given a chance to ask, I don't even know if I could have framed those questions.
But while listening, many confusions started becoming clear. Things that had been bothering me for quite some time didn't feel as heavy anymore.
I only hope I don't forget these things and end up creating the same unnecessary suffering again.
Day 4
Again, I couldn't sleep because of external disturbances.
Still, I found myself waiting for the session to begin.
During one of the processes, something happened that I still can't explain. This wasn't even an in-person program. It was online. Yet the experience was so intense that my mind immediately started questioning it.
"What exactly is happening? Is this real? Am I just imagining it?"
I don't have answers.
My mind still wants logic. But at the same time, it cannot deny what I experienced in those moments.
Some experiences don't fit into neat explanations.
Whatever it was, it left a deep impression on me.
If even a little of what I experienced stays with me, I'll consider myself fortunate.
One thing this program has shown me is that even when we think, "It's just a small program," there is something valuable in it.
Sadhguru keeps creating opportunities for people to go beyond their limitations.
Whether we make use of them or not is entirely up to us.
✨ Joyfully looking forward to Day 5 😊🙏🌸