u/W__Mans

So I was bored and decided to log on discord for the first time in 2 years. I wanted to hop around and check out a few servers before I decided to settle into one. There was this girl I ran into. Her name was Christina. Not even 10 minutes into the conversation, we were in a dm call and she was bussing it open. Wide open. On camera. 8 hours and a few water breaks later, exhausted, winded, and thoroughly satisfied, we began talking about our music taste. She said she liked Jaydes, so I blocked her.

So I was bored and decided to log on discord for the first time in 2 years. I wanted to hop around and check out a few servers before I decided to settle into one. There was this girl I ran into. Her name was Christina. Not even 10 minutes into the conversation, we were in a dm call and she was bussing it open. Wide open. On camera. 8 hours and a few water breaks later, exhausted, winded, and thoroughly satisfied, we began talking about our music taste. She said she liked Jaydes, so I blocked her.

Shorty not even big and she already organizing charities for cancer patients and giveaways for underprivileged children, mfs need to start giving her what she deserves.

So nobody here knows me but im wmans. Im 19 turning 20, and I feel like im 7 yrs to a decade too late, but tomorrow I start therapy. I always found it uncomfortable to "seek help" until I realized im sick of living in a cage, a personality and being with interests centered around untreated ocd. What I was really scared of was seeking change. Comfort with discomfort is a real thing. The comfort with what you know to be "safe".

When I felt totally alone, juice was my refuge, so I feel like i can find refuge in my peers here. Im sure yall grew up on Juice too. I hope im welcome. And i hope as I share I inspire others to do what they need to for their mental health. Love

If Jaydes had dropped good albums, worked on networking and promotions, and tapping into his creativity on a deeper level, i could see him being Broward county's biggest star after X. He even had that vibe. Jaydes chances are long gone now tho. Smh.

Given his talent and star power he would've blown up regardless realistically, but i feel like had he stayed unknown, he would've went harder and had no access to drugs. Meaning he'd have been better than anything we saw. And if he were a prominent figure in the underground, it would make it so the ug didnt have such a bad name. I mean think about it, the underground would sound so different and on the forefront it'd be someone like Juice instead of Jaydes or Wifiskel. We lost a great one.

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TLDR; he wouldnt have overdosed and would've been a positive influence, image, and inspiration to the underground

Since I was 13 ive been afraid that I might be a pedophile. I am not a predator, I've never wanted to nor ever will prey on anyone younger than me but my bodily responses my thoughts and how I feel are what terrify me. Ive never gotten real help, as the two times I tried to reach out to immediate family (14 and 19) I was immediately about to be outcasts. My parents said they were going to warn people in the family and keep me away from my little siblings the first time. I just wanted help because of what I felt. Later on in life (18-now) I had sought help through psychiatric facilities, rehab facilities for better mental health advocacy, and even started taking SSRIs. I don't have anywhere else to go with this. I just want to live a normal life. I want to be normal and feel safe in my own mind. I cant afford therapy right now and I cant afford to unalive myself because I don't want to make such an ultimate and final decision that would leave my family in grief. I had already tried it, and i cant stomach doing that to them again. I just want to feel normal.

From 12-14 I was tasked with watching my sister when my folks weren't around. I was watching adult content from time to time, while my sister was out of range or asleep. But she was present when the most terrifying thing happened. I looked at the video, I looked back to make sure she was asleep, I felt something. I was like "OH no. What just happened?" Checked for it again. It happened again. I felt like I crossed the line when I checked the second time. It's made it hard to sleep, to feel like life is worth living, it makes me depressed and sickly. Therapy centers haven't let me get past front desk reception without immediately calling CPS on me. I can't unalive myself, because I've tried, and for my last action in life to be so devastating in my family is something I can't do. But I need advice, I need answers, I need guidance. Im an adult now, 20 years old. I can't live on like this.

I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder (formally aspergers) and anxiety at age 6, again at age 7, and I'm often socially isolated and left to my own thoughts.

Since I was 13 ive been afraid that I might be a pedophile. I am not a predator, I've never wanted to nor ever will prey on anyone younger than me but my bodily responses my thoughts and how I feel are what terrify me. Ive never gotten help, as the two times I tried to reach out to immediate family (14 and 19) I was immediately about to be outcasts. My parents said they were going to warn people in the family and keep me away from my little siblings the first time. I just wanted help because of what I felt. From 12-14 I was tasked with watching my sister when my folks weren't around. I was watching adult content from time to time, while my sister was out of range or asleep. But she was present when the most terrifying thing happened. I looked at the video, I looked back to make sure she was asleep, I felt something. I was like "OH no. What just happened?" Checked for it again. It happened again. I felt like I crossed the line when I checked the second time. It's made it hard to sleep, to feel like life is worth living, it makes me depressed and sickly. Therapy centers haven't let me get past front desk reception without immediately calling CPS on me. I can't kill myself, because I've tried, and for my last action in life to be so devastating in my family and for my adolescent life and mental issues to be my legacy, no. I feel bad for having pride but I cant go out like that. But I need advice, I need answers, I need guidance. Im an adult now, 20 years old. I can't live on like this. Im contemplating an "accidental" death already. Someone please give me some insight as to what I should do.

I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder (formally aspergers) and anxiety at age 6, again at age 7, and I'm often socially isolated and left to my own thoughts. Ive genuinely caught myself slipping in terms of sanity. I voluntarily put myself into mental hospitals multiple times in 2025 because I wanted immediate answers and immediate solutions. Psychiatrists said I have OCD, and sexual trauma. Idk.