u/Whisper3824

First photo is my daddy and the second photo is of my wedding day and in the picture with me is my mom and my daddy.

Thank you again for taking the time to read my long post

I want to apologize a head of time if my post is all over the place about my daddy.

My daddy passed away Dec. 18, 2022 and I didn't get the chance to say goodbye not because I didn't want to, 1 because I wasn't home, 2 I was in active addiction.

He isn't my bio dad, him and my mom had been together 20 years and married 18 of those 20 years, he passed on their 18th wedding anniversary.

A little back story if you will, a few years after my parents got married, I flew home to NH from AZ because my mom had to have her knee replacement and soon after my daddy had to have his back surgery, maybe a year after daddy had his back surgery, he had a mini stroke, I get to the ER and find out what room he was in, and I go back to his room, and when I entered his room, the nurse was in there hooking him up to the monitors and things, mom introduces me to his nurse, she says " oh this is Norval's step daughter Martha." and my daddy says in turn " there is no step in family." I couldn't have been more proud as I was at that moment.

See, I didn't grow up with my bio dad around and all my mom's boyfriends and ex-husband abused me in one way or another, so when mom met daddy, I was very skeptical and in the beginning of my addiction, soon after though I had quit and while detoxing, he would get up early before the rest of the house and he sat in a chair not to close but not to far away from the couch where I had been sleeping, to check on me and to talk to me, my daddy was an LPN when he was in his 40s or 50s, and so he wanted to make sure my breathing was good and things of that nature. So back to my story, when he came and sat with me, he would have his morning coffee and a drink for me, and we bonded those 2 weeks while I detoxed.

So when he told his nurse that I wasn't his step daughter, I am his daughter, he made me feel like I finally had my dad, and I had made a promise to him that if he passed before mom, I would take care of mom and vise versa, well mom isn't with me, she is in Ohio with my sister because when daddy passed, I was in active addiction, I am now clean. Mom has dementia and uprooting her would not be a good idea, I've done my homework.

The first photo is of my daddy and the second one is Daddy, mom and I

Thank you again for taking the time to read my long post

I want to apologize a head of time if my post is all over the place about my daddy.

My daddy passed away Dec. 18, 2022 and I didn't get the chance to say goodbye not because I didn't want to, 1 because I wasn't home, 2 I was in active addiction.

He isn't my bio dad, him and my mom had been together 20 years and married 18 of those 20 years, he passed on their 18th wedding anniversary.

A little back story if you will, a few years after my parents got married, I flew home to NH from AZ because my mom had to have her knee replacement and soon after my daddy had to have his back surgery, maybe a year after daddy had his back surgery, he had a mini stroke, I get to the ER and find out what room he was in, and I go back to his room, and when I entered his room, the nurse was in there hooking him up to the monitors and things, mom introduces me to his nurse, she says " oh this is Norval's step daughter Martha." and my daddy says in turn " there is no step in family." I couldn't have been more proud as I was at that moment.

See, I didn't grow up with my bio dad around and all my mom's boyfriends and ex-husband abused me in one way or another, so when mom met daddy, I was very skeptical and in the beginning of my addiction, soon after though I had quit and while detoxing, he would get up early before the rest of the house and he sat in a chair not to close but not to far away from the couch where I had been sleeping, to check on me and to talk to me, my daddy was an LPN when he was in his 40s or 50s, and so he wanted to make sure my breathing was good and things of that nature. So back to my story, when he came and sat with me, he would have his morning coffee and a drink for me, and we bonded those 2 weeks while I detoxed.

So when he told his nurse that I wasn't his step daughter, I am his daughter, he made me feel like I finally had my dad, and I had made a promise to him that if he passed before mom, I would take care of mom and vise versa, well mom isn't with me, she is in Ohio with my sister because when daddy passed, I was in active addiction, I am now clean. Mom has dementia and uprooting her would not be a good idea, I've done my homework.

I need to know if he is disappointed in me, and if he has been giving me signs that he is here with me and if he hears me talk to him almost daily. I also want to know he knew how much I love him and how blessed I am to call him daddy.