Does online infidelity count as cheating especially when there are no emotions involved from my side?
I(35M) have cheated online on my wife(35F) 6 times in the past two years. We have been married for almost 2 years with anniversary falling on 11th July. I have a 15months old son. The first 2 months were really good. But after that I have done online infidelity multiple times and today was the 6th time when she caught me texting women intimately. I am a porn addict and I like watching porn where women strip. I have a kink for that. So much so, that I get instant pleasure in that than real sex. I lose erection sometimes while getting physical with my wife. I don’t feel the friction whenever I try to prolong it and thats why I don’t like real sex and therefore prefer having online sexting pleasurable with pic sharing and all. Is there a way to come out of this sin that I have been committing for so long now. I don’t want to lose my wife and I have hurt here beyond repair. She wants to go. I want to save my marriage. I am repenting. I want a way out. So I need help.