u/WorriedWing306

Hii i already bought an electric guitar but i cant decide on which amp to get, the shop i bought the guitar at was recommending cort, it was about 97 in usd, but my budget was kinda tight, so i didnt buy it.

thoughts on mini amps? I see a lot of hate for them saying they sound trash or like toys but my budget is kinda there

My choices are a used orange crush 12 or a used marshall mg10 unless someone else buys it first

or a brand new orange crush mini

or a brand new boss katana mini which im kinda unsure about because its still expensive

for amp sims like audio interface, its also expensive and a bit of a hassle because i have to use it with a laptop so idk

I first got prescribed sertraline/zoloft but I told my psychiatrist that there hasn’t really been improvements with it so i got prescribed with half of a 5mg Abilify. When I first started sertraline the side effects were so uncomfortable that I stopped it. Then, reading the reviews here I got really scared of the side effects especially the tremors and weight gain. I already have sleeping issues and restless legs, so if I get these side effects I feel like my mental health will just get worse? I haven’t bought the medicine yet im not sure if I should…

I feel really hopeless and I’m more depressed than I was before I started medication :( I never skipped classes or missed assignments before but ever since I started, I’m now skipping and missing deadlines. I started medication because I wanted to do better in college not do worse I feel so miserable and I can’t even get out of bed

I’m so scared of the side effects mainly the diarrhea and GI issues, I can deal with the rest like the headaches but not this. The first day, It made me shit and it made shit earlier idk if i will later also my stomach is hurting like hell. I also saw someone said they bloated so hard they looked pregnant and some people said that their gut was ruined and even though they were off zoloft they still had issues. I’m thinking about this long term and I’m scared that I’ll ruin my life by taking SSRIS.

when I see people in their 30s, 40s, maybe even older posting about how miserable they are, I just think wow this doesn’t really end. When I was a child I would wonder about how I’ll turn out when I get older, maybe I’ll be like those confident cool older teens I saw who were confident doing cool things or I would be dead on my 18th birthday. Sometimes I wonder if I never disregarded my thoughts and feelings as a cringe edgy phase maybe I would’ve had a chance to get up, but i always give up even if i haven’t lost yet, I just lose from not trying. It’s a cycle, life is great sometimes, and sometimes it’s fucking hell. And when I say “great” I mean how nothing bad happens, when something generally good happens like a milestone I don’t feel a sense of accomplishment or excitement. The relief is a nice feeling though. But I’m tired of this cycle. Even when nothings wrong, life is such a drag. I don’t feel like talking, getting up, sleeping, eating, it’s takes so much effort to shower and go to college It takes so much effort to be alive, eating and drinking water and showering and I don’t like doing anything. Tbh my life is not that bad and if someone were to take over my body and life i feel like they would be happy its because of my brain, my attitude, and my thoughts that cant seem to appreciate and make the most of the day. In the future, I see myself being miserable like I have been for the past 12 years. I know someone would probably think get hobbies, get up and make the most of your life, try to succeed, but I just don’t really feel like being alive. Not that I would kill myself, I wish. That takes courage and I’m too lazy for that. what a waste of air and working organs ikr

I’m genuinely a waste of space. I’m just a burden to my family and friends. I have nothing to bring to the table. I have no hobbies. I’m pessimistic, always irritated, angry, and mad. I’ve tried to get better multiple times and even took up counseling, but it didn’t help. I don’t care if people care about me because I don’t bring any use or benefit to any of them, but even dying would just be another inconvenience for them.

I never really tried to get help during my childhood or teen years because I always thought I was just going through an edgy phase and would grow out of it, but it never really got better for me. I wish I never existed. I don’t have any energy or motivation to be better or change. I don’t even have the energy to get out of bed, eat, or sleep. I can’t even kill myself.

I can’t count how many times I’ve thought to myself that I should get help, but when I think about the process and actually doing it, I just give up. I’ve put this off for so long that it’s been years now. I don’t have the courage to tell my parents. I barely even have the energy to get out of bed when they call me to eat. I can’t imagine the effort it would take to leave the house alone, look for a hospital, and figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Even typing and thinking about this takes so much effort that I ended up writing everything badly and feeding it to AI just to make it coherent. I hate myself, and I hate how much effort it takes just to stay alive. I want to do so much, but I feel paralyzed and end up never doing anything. I just stay in bed all day, mindlessly scrolling for hours.