u/WynterGordon

Too broke to afford another trip anytime soon. This was my shot and I've fumbled it.

Too broke to afford another trip anytime soon. This was my shot and I've fumbled it.

Poptimism and autism and their consequences

I had Lasik surgery back in 2017 when I was 22. I had 20/20 vision for around 4 years and then found that I needed glasses again. I'm unsure if my recovery was not as smooth as it should have been, as I was young and reckless; a lot of partying (drinking and weed) took place around those years, and I remember doing these things only a day or two after the surgery. I don't know if these silly behaviors are what led to only 3 years of perfect vision, or if it was any number of other variables (my relatively young age of 22, eyesight not fully developed, something like that).

I can't get contact lenses in no matter how hard I try and while glasses do work, I do prefer not having to wear them if possible. My vision is ultimately not awful, sitting at around -1.5, -2.0 (and has been stable for years), but without glasses I can't see people's faces appropriately from afar and I need to be able to read emotions and subtle facial movements for my work.

If you were me and you had saved money for another surgery, would you do it? If this time around, at age 30, I could get a full 10+ years out of it, I would be extremely satisfied.

Personally I've always found identifying connections between two seemingly unlikely things has brought me a lot of joy and curiosity to the world around us. I understand there are often biases and you might just trick yourself because you want to find something in nothing, but there's so many unexplained things I've come across. I have many stories but I don't want to bore everyone with a wall of possibly boring text, and I'm also unsure if sharing them will decrease the frequency.

Anyway am I just schizo or is this stuff some of the most interesting parts of being alive? Anyone good any lit recommendations for these things? I haven't read anything beyond very very basic Jung and tend to just go by my intuition.

I've never heard of anybody else doing this