u/Yams92

I’ve (34M) been addicted to porn for as long as I can remember but the hold it has had over me comes in waves.

I recently ended a 6 year relationship with a woman I love very much. After we broke up it came out that I had been engaging in inappropriate conversations with women online and sending illicit pictures. If you had told me 6 years ago that I would be capable of disrespecting our relationship like this I wouldn’t believe you. I’ve always been a loving, caring, and loyal partner. But my addiction fully consumed me. She was right there in front of me, this beautiful goddess of a woman, and yet I felt compelled to partake in this act of betrayal. I’m not trying to excuse my behavior, but this year or so I fell deep into the throes of addiction. The worst it has ever been. And I know that if I had gotten ahold of my problem, I wouldn’t have done what I did. It’s like I don’t even recognize myself. I feel fucking disgusted and ashamed. I’ve destroyed someone I love and for what? It’s pathetic.

I can’t change what I did. But I hope I can change who I am and become a better person for myself. All I can do is keep moving forward I guess.

I’m not fully sure what my point is. I guess I just need some hope that I can return to the man I was before I was completely overtaken by this.

Disclaimer: I am not religious and not looking for any advice that involves Jesus or the Bible

I know a short clip of this song has been posted in the past but I’ve never heard the full thing until now. Dumb lyrics aside, it’s rare to see a song with zero momentum or shift.

Bought 3 tickets but my 3rd cancelled on me so I have an extra that I would like to sell.