u/_Strawberry_Bat

Tired of being told "it'll happen when it'll happen", "if it's meant to be then it's meant to be, and my personal favorite, "if it's God's will"

These are mainly all said by my wonderful partner who truly is trying to come from a place of love and help. However he has no idea the pain of not knowing if I'll ever conceive. He has a child already (an oopsie child with a woman he slept with for only two weeks before she got pregnant) which kills me inside already. I'm just so alone and I don't even want to bring it up or talk to him about it anymore. Anytime I talk to anyone else I am just told "you have plenty of time, don't rush it!" Or "relax and it'll happen!". It's so unhelpful when I'm grieving. As if I haven't tried everything - the test strips, legs lifted up, having A LOT of sex, trying to NOT check constantly and "relax", doctor visits, medication, devices to stick up there to test for ovulation .. you name it, and if it's realistically affordable - I have tried it.

I'm tired of all this, and I just want to cry and have someone hold me and tell me they have my back and will do anything to help me achieve this. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

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u/_Strawberry_Bat — 3 days ago

Found a super cool Sonic at a collectible shop. Is he fan made?

I love horror and Sonic, so I had to get him. And at $20, he was a steal in such amazing condition! 😊 Does anyone know who made him, or any lore?

u/_Strawberry_Bat — 4 days ago

I can't even watch my favorite "influencers" anymore

I have 3 favorite "influencers" that I enjoy watching. They're body positive, funny, and confident yet kind humans. And all three of these different women have gotten pregnant around the same time, so I can't even handle watching them anymore (they usually just do body confidence/funny little skit type videos and now all their videos are around their pregnancy - which I totally understand). I typically only watch them when I'm feeling down and bad about myself and it's a quick pick me up, but I can't anymore. I'm so happy for them, but so sad for myself. I feel like I can't get away from pregnancy announcements - I have gotten rid of Facebook, don't have it in me to talk with most friends as they're all pregnant or already mom's. I feel like nobody understands the depravity I feel. It's so isolating. My boyfriend has a child from a previous relationship, so it doesn't affect him like it does me nor does he understand the heartbreak.

I'm just tired and sad that I have to continuously dig myself into a tighter hole so that I'm not constantly bombarded with everyone's happy successes.

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u/_Strawberry_Bat — 7 days ago