u/__wanderer111

Hey guys, I need some help understanding a really strange dream I had yesterday.
In my dream, a random person gave me a mala, which I think was made of some kind of metal. It felt extremely strong or hard, and everyone around me was trying to steal it from me.
The person who gave it to me told me that the mala/mantra would help me get money by chanting the mantra for one mala (one round).
The strange part is that they gave me a mantra that I’ve never heard before. The mantra was:
“Om Zaitma Namaha”
I have no idea if this is an actual Sanskrit/Hindu mantra, something from another tradition, or just something my brain created in a dream.
Does anyone recognize “Om Zaitma Namaha”? Is it an actual mantra? Does it have any meaning or connection to wealth/money? And could it be considered a negative, occult, or “devil” mantra?
I know it was only a dream, but the whole thing felt unusually vivid and significant, especially the part about everyone trying to take the mala from me.
Would really appreciate any insight, especially from people familiar with Sanskrit, Hindu mantras, or dream symbolism.

One thing I have realized in life is that our mindset shapes far more of our experience than we often realize.

For a long time, I struggled with friendship betrayals, attachment issues, and people I considered “snake friends.” I constantly felt like a victim of what others had done to me. I spent so much time asking myself, “Why did they do this?” or “Why did this happen to me?”

As time passed, my perspective changed.

I started to believe that what other people do is their responsibility, but how I respond is mine. If someone hurts me, that becomes part of their karma. My reaction becomes part of mine.

Instead of asking why someone wronged me, I started asking myself, God, and the universe: “What is this situation trying to teach me?”

That question changed a lot for me.

I still don’t have many friends, and I still find it difficult to trust people. I don’t think trust should be given blindly. But I’ve also learned that constantly searching for validation, loyalty, or happiness from other people can leave us disappointed.

I’ve become comfortable with my own company. I’ve learned that being alone is not the same as being lonely. When we genuinely enjoy our own presence, we become less dependent on others to make us feel complete.

That doesn’t mean we should let people walk over us. If someone mistreats you, stand up for yourself. Protect yourself. Sometimes the lesson life is trying to teach us is exactly that to set boundaries and value ourselves enough to say no.

What I’ve learned is that focusing on whether someone will get their karma only keeps us tied to them. Instead, I try to focus on my own actions, my own growth, and the lessons life is presenting to me.

People will do what they do. That is their path.

My responsibility is to focus on mine.

I hate it when people get too close to me emotionally or act like they “own” me. I don’t know why, but whenever someone becomes very attached to me, I start feeling disgusted and angry.

For example, if I don’t call my mom for a few days and she asks why, I immediately feel irritated. When friends become too dependent on me, want constant contact, or act possessive, I can’t stand it. In relationships, I feel the same way. The closer someone tries to get, the more uncomfortable I become.

It’s not just annoyance either. Sometimes I feel such intense anger that I want to push them away or even hurt them (I would never actually do it, but that’s how strong the feeling is).

Does anyone else experience this? Is there a psychological reason why I react so strongly when people get emotionally close or seem possessive?

I hate it when people get too close to me emotionally or act like they “own” me. I don’t know why, but whenever someone becomes very attached to me, I start feeling disgusted and angry.

For example, if I don’t call my mom for a few days and she asks why, I immediately feel irritated. When friends become too dependent on me, want constant contact, or act possessive, I can’t stand it. In relationships, I feel the same way. The closer someone tries to get, the more uncomfortable I become.

It’s not just annoyance either. Sometimes I feel such intense anger that I want to push them away or even hurt them (I would never actually do it, but that’s how strong the feeling is).

Does anyone else experience this? Is there a psychological reason why I react so strongly when people get emotionally close or seem possessive?

I had a very close friend, but over time our relationship started to feel strange to me. He began copying a lot of what I did my habits, the way I spoke, my interests, and even specific phrases I used. It got to the point where I felt uncomfortable and like I was losing my sense of individuality around him. Because of that, I started doing a personal visualization exercise every day. I would close my eyes, picture him, and mentally “call my energy back” to create a stronger sense of separation and personal boundaries. After doing this, I felt much more relieved and emotionally lighter. What surprised me is that around the same time, he became very sick much sicker than I had ever seen him before. I wasn’t expecting that, and now I’m wondering if the timing was just a coincidence or if anyone has had a similar experience after distancing themselves from someone emotionally or energetically.
Has anyone experienced something like this? How did you interpret it?

Help