u/acecrookston

i say i'm recovered because i no longer fear any foods and stopped obsessing over the number on the scale. when in wrestling i knew that i was going to have to do weigh ins and the weight class that i was going to be wrestling in was going to be public. i actually handled that not as badly as i thought. what i didn't handle so well was when people kept mentioning the "correct" way to be eating or when people told me not to eat before weigh ins. i hadn't eaten all day and not because of the ed but just because i prefer not to eat in public spaces. i was just taking a few bites of a pretzel before we had done weigh ins and i was getting told off. i was 20 pounds under the next weight class so it literally didn't matter and i was not going to go over.

so wrestling season is obviously over it's summer now and i graduated this year but this happened on senior night. my wrestling singlet got soaked cause i left it in my bag with my stanley full of water inside so i borrowed a singlet from the coach. for some odd reason i didn't put my shorts over my singlet and only had a shirt on so from below my shirt it was just my wrestling singlet. while we were drilling prior to the match upstairs the coach walked up to me and said "weird question. are you wearing underwear?" i didn't lie and told him no. i haven't worn underwear under my clothes for years. i simply don't find them comfortable and don't see how they serve such a purpose. people overheard and started gossiping about it i kept getting made fun of for it. every day i was getting asked my teammates if i had underwear on even not at practice. i started wearing underwear during practice for the sake of everyone making comments and they would always have me pull up my shorts to prove i was wearing underwear. why is it that deep? i'm wearing shorts and everything is covered. why is that extra layer underneath so important?

so i graduated high school this year and this happened the very last semester. i became friends with this dude that i met by having 2 classes with him the semester. everything was fine. we had 2 classes and i would walk with him in the hallways after the classes we had together and walk to his class then part ways after. at first he seemed cool about it but later on after a while he eventually got mad and told me to stop following him to all his classes right when we entered his class after walking with each other up to it. we get 5 minutes between class periods and i would go with him and wait until a minute before class started to leave. i didn't understand why he was so upset given me personally i like when people walk with me to my classes but ofc i respected his wishes. we continued to talk as normal afterwards but i don't know why those few minutes i'm with him walking him to his classes and the hours we talk in class is so different? why is he completely okay talking to me during class and sometimes after school before i had practice and over text too but not okay to keep the conversation going a few more minutes during passing period? AITA?

when i was in highschool junior year was when i would start switching classes at semester or the first couple days of the semester when i still could. (i would also skip classes from time to time which now i regret because i didn't realize how short high school was) one time i even withdrew from a class like 7 weeks into the semester (it was english and the social situation was really bad and the only way out was to withdraw entirely and do english 101 running start to make up for the credit) i felt a little bad but also i don't know how much teachers actually care if a student leaves their class. how do you all feel?

when i did wrestling honestly the only time we ever had a decent amount of people was for senior night (i was a senior last season and i was the very last match my senior night since they bumped me up to heavy weight class which was kinda cool) but really we didn't get a whole lot of people to show up. there isn't enough wrestling hype imo. i feel like wrestling should be the 3rd most important event that the school holds (asides from football and basketball)

skipping classes or performing poorly should not mean you're not able to play the sport you love most. this didn't happen to me during wrestling season but during spring sports i got my season cut short for going to an away meet after being more than 10 minutes late to 1st period (if ur more than 10 minutes late ur absent) it's funny cause i would actually legit skip classes during wrestling season and was never banned from participating which i'm grateful because wrestling is something i like more than almost anything but i don't think your school performance or attendance should be a a reason to cut athletes. the only reasons should be either not being good enough for team sports only (not wrestling cause it's not a team sport) or for never going to practice.

i did yearbook last year but not this year so i didn't find this out till i got my yearbook. one of the mod questions was "who on the team would you not let date your daughter?" i got the most votes. i for some reason was not asked to take the pole but i knew that was the mod question cause people were talking about it the day the pole was taken in January during wrestling season. i was there with a few girls and the girls all told me who they picked and none of them was me and i figured i wouldn't be voted. i ended with the most votes on the pole. truly never going to stop talking about it.

regardless of whether the conversation has something to do with me or not when someone talks about someone i like regardless of what they are saying makes me uncomfortable. regardless of if their name is being brought up because of me or they are just talking about him for whatever reason hearing it makes me very uncomfortable. the exception to this being when i'm having a conversation with someone about him and they know he's my crush. how do you all feel?