Im soo excited, she is sooo pretty. She reminds me a lot of the bear Anna Gram by Charlie bears and I never got to get her, so she is my little Anna Gram! She has nothing but hella beans in her body Im obsessed.
Ive been talking to this cute girl I have a crush on for the last 5 days, been saying good morning every morning. She usually messages me by now but she left me on read last night. Do I message her or do I let her message me?? I want to show my interest but I also don’t want her to think I’m too clingy. Im also a woman by the way Im not sure if that makes a difference. Im so nervous and I really want to keep talking to her.
Just the cherry on the top of everything, I told him that saying the N word is disrespectful to POC and he told me to kill myself and see if he cares. He just bombs the hardest most radically charged er’s Ive ever heard and is just ok with it and says everyone around him is just okay with it too. I told him if he doesn’t respect me (or clearly black people) then I’m not going to talk to him anymore. Im so pissed off he could even say to me after “ kill yourself” like are we serious?? Are these racists really like this?? Im ok and safe just angry.
I just adore them, they were in storage but I missed them.
I just don’t understand how people go from strangers to genuine friends. It feels so lonely and like everyone else just gets it idk. Being autistic doesn’t help. Im scared of attractive women (am a woman) and that doesn’t help either.
Tag says Russ Soft Classics. I cant find anything about him online, but he’s such a cutie.
My whimsical child has been adopted from Charlie Bears. She fits right in to her new family.
Her name is Sweet Tooth. Pictures really don’t do her justice, she is absolutely stunning. She also fits on my lap perfectly.
Y’all I was so sad when I saw Festoon was gone. I went to a couple stores today and remembered that one had some teddy’s and when I looked they were there! I made sure I picked the cutest/most unique one. Her ears aren’t really folded like the others were. I love dragons and this just made my whole week. On top of that, she is my first Charlie Bear so it makes it extra special for me. Now I need a special name for her.
Im so sorry, I should have let you live as a normal bird. I was young and you were beautiful. You probably never got to have baby birds and if you did I probably took you from them. We put you in a little cage until you died of a seizure. You lived for years inside. I feel so horrible even though there were with other birds. I cherished you because you were the last thing I had from my dad, not because you were a living thing, and I’m so so so sorry.
Every fucking day I’m woken up in the most unpleasant way. The creaky door, something dropping loud in the room, slamming doors, screaming. Never am I ever told “sorry for waking you up”. Never does the door get fixed (I don’t know how). And no one cares that they’re screaming or slamming doors. Or it’s complete random bullshit that doesn’t need to happen when I’m sleeping. Sometimes it’s the smell of strong ISO filling up the room and making me think I’m dying. Or knocking hard on the door to wake me up just to tell me to turn MY fans off in 90 deg weather so you can do some bullshit that “needs to happen right now”. This is not fucking normal and Im tired of everyone thinking it is. Oh and don’t break into my room when I’m sleeping just to force my vent to not have any air coming though, just cause you suspected that I messed with it because it’s hot as hell.
I ask for help, I voice my needs, I try hard where I can. I don’t get help and I’m paused. It’s been a long time, and things are breaking. Im slowly losing the energy and dedication I had. I need more than “Im here for you”. Here by my side telling me I’m not doing anything. I’m trying to survive. I’m trying to learn how to regulate myself. I’m learning new hobbies that I don’t have the funds for. I’m cleaning our mess. I listen to your day and actually listen and care. I don’t do this for you particularly. I do it because I care. How much do you care? You see me completely burnt out and think it’s time to complain about everything I’ve ever done, and everything I haven’t. You’re not the only one that treats me like this, that I’ve gone to for help. It feels like people think I just want things for free. I want to be apart of my own happiness. But it’s always “I can’t do it for you” and never “then let’s sit down and solve this”. Support is not sitting down in the same room while I make a phone call. It’s giving me the words I need to advance in an important conversation. It’s telling me what time I can make appointments because you’re my ride. It’s a simple “hey I’m going to go brush my teeth, would you like to join?”. Im sorry if thats much and I’m being impractical. Im just so sick of hearing “I can’t do it for you” when thats never what I wanted. If I got help when I was a teen then I would have learned this stuff already, but thats in the past and I can’t change that. Everyone has to start somewhere, and it’s not my fault the adults in my life were shitty. But somehow I’m getting punished for their failure to teach.
Opal wanted friendship bracelets for her and Xylia. Zuli was impressed and quite jealous so Opal made her and Sky a pair as well.