u/agnostic_angel

Title. I haven’t played in over a year but I know how to. I was in my college’s jazz band for a semester (couldn’t continue, scheduling issues) and realized my lack of understanding of music theory is seriously putting me back (I didn’t learn any in high school) So I’d appreciate some preferably free resources or places to start practicing, thank you

I’m a terrible person to ask for advice because my actual opinion on the topic will ALWAYS be swayed by the other person’s. It’s like I have a buffer period to thinking for myself, and I can’t do it when I’m actively talking to someone else; that’s too much stimulation and I already have a lot of time keeping track of information, let alone comprehending it. I will just encourage people’s bad delusions, neuroses, and hunches that i really should have known better than to fuel. I can never speak up for my own opinions during an argument because it feels like I have none anyway I will just endlessly placate another person and maybe only slightly form my own agenda