Ya know what? It really is all going to be alright.
You know what? It really is all going to be alright.
Sorry, I just need to yap into the void a bit.
The past two years have felt like one long quarter life crisis, but this past year especially has put me through it. A traumatic breakup, moving on a whim, changing careers, family drama, family deaths, and now studying for one of the most strenuous set of exams I’ve ever taken.
But this year I’ve also worked harder than I ever have to get myself into a better place mentally, physically, and professionally. And for a while, it felt like everything was finally clicking. So many good things started happening at once that I genuinely felt like I was on a winning streak.
Then life reminded me about the ebbs and flows.
Yesterday I took my Series 7 for the first time and failed by two questions..
I was devastated. I had studied my ass off, passed my SIE on the first try, had good practice scores, and genuinely thought there was no fucking way I wouldn’t pass. Maybe I got a little cocky. Maybe life decided I needed some humbling.
My birthday is tomorrow, and yesterday I literally decided I was cancelling everything. I moped around feeling like I needed to punish myself for failing.
Then today, out of nowhere, I just started laughing.
Because this is life, isn’t it?
Sometimes you’re fucking killing it. Sometimes life knocks you flat on your ass right in the middle of your winning streak. Neither lasts forever.
And I think one of the best parts of getting older is that it takes me less and less time to remember that. A bad day doesn’t mean I have a bad life. One failure doesn’t erase everything I’ve worked so hard for.
Life is beautiful. Sometimes it’s also mean as hell. Both can be true.
So tomorrow I’m not punishing myself. I made a reservation at a really nice steakhouse, I’m getting dressed up, having a great dinner, and
celebrating my birthday.
And the Series 7? I get another shot in a month.
This time I know what I’m walking into. And I’m going back for those two fucking questions.
Anyway, thanks for reading my yap.
The tide comes back in. It really is all going to be alright.