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I was laying in bed to go to sleep with my eyes closed in thought. I was almost asleep , I was in that trance state still having thoughts but not quite dreaming yet, conscious but not quite aware of the thoughts. And then I a “cracking” flash of light washed over me and n my minds eye bringing me back to complete awareness. I say cracking because I felt it.you know when you are sleeping and then you feel like your falling and it bring you back to? I kinda felt that too but not because I was faking it was just startling I guess. Anyways after that I said in my head what was that. And then I immediately went into my mind eyes visions and saw a snake and I heard kundalini. And then that’s when I started seeing vivid colors lines shapes and flashes and my eyes never opened from start to finish. Never had that happen to me before.what do yall have to say?

Hi everyone! I had a crazy experience last night! Recently I’ve been going through a lot of subconscious energy healing because of an awakening journey I’ve recently come into. So the experience I had was this surging, repetitive feeling of heart flutters while sitting down and talking to my husband. I just started getting overcome with this pure love over my whole body, not even directed at him just random in general. we weren’t talking about anything passionate or particular , just a normal night for us. I believe everyone has felt this feeling at base rate at least once in their life when experiencing pure love and joy in the moment. I’ve had heart flutters when looking at my children as newborns, just overcome with love. But this was crazy intense! It just kept happening over and over with more intensity and I felt like bubbles of joy were going to burst out of me every time. I had goosebumps and I felt light as a feather and just giddy and wanting to laugh and smile. Just wondering if anyone has experienced this and what it could be linked to? Only thing I can think of is heart chakra unblocking.

Hi , I had a dream last night that seem important. I’ve been going through an intense awakening of consciousness. It’s kind of hard to describe the part of the dream that stuck with me but I’ve been able to write down key points of the dream. Ik it’s not much

Dark
Water
Reflective mask
Drowning
Clawfoot Bathtub
Aquarius entity

There was a guide that said this Aquarius entity had attached itself to me unknowingly and was the one drowning me and the guide told me “You don’t need her”

At this point I’m not sure if the Aquarius entity is negative or the force/guide telling me to reject it. Idk I just know that the whole scene was dark.

My kids (7m, 9m) have been asking a lot lately why we don’t go to church anymore. We have been not going to church for about 3 months now, although my deconstruction journey has been going on a bit longer . I’m not quite sure what to tell them. I would tell them we may be trying other church’s/denominations, but that was before I came to the realization that all religion is a mechanism of spiritual control jumping around to a different denomination won’t bring freedom… religion has caused serious bondage and harm to me spiritually and mentally. I want them to explain ti them appropriate for their age. I want them to understand and not blame me. I asked my older son (9m) if he rather go to church or not and he said he rather stay home. Any advice? I want them to have the freedom to choose for them selves but I do want to be honest.

It’s been almost 5 years since I’ve seen my tf. One day I decided i had to move on and stop the cat and mouse and I met a good guy that I was attracted to and that was a good thing for me and I decided to settle down with him. I knew no one would ever compare to my tf but I thought because I fell in love with him quickly that that was a good sign and I ran with it. I didn’t settle I really did love him. Still love him. We have a beautiful family and a beautiful life that I love building with him. But my tf memory has always haunted me. He’s always right behind my shoulder reminding me of our connection. Sometimes I think I will never be able to go all the way connections wise with my husband because of my twin. Will I ever escape. It’s gotten worse recently because I broke no contact in an attempt to congratulate him( stupidly I told myself it’s okay) and he told me that he wished he would’ve worked it out with me and that it’s his fault we didn’t go all the way. Ik it’s a lot deeper than just that. Anyways ever since I broke no contact and he told me that it has been worse. Anyone experiencing a similar married and no contact dynamic? What are you doing to cope? To let go? Is it possible?