Sleep train nerves - advice help
My LO is 6 months in 2 weeeks and we have made the difficult decision after a bad night that we will sleep train. 10 days time. I feel terrible about it as I have a zvery spirited persistent girl who cries a lot and wakes up several times a night. I am exhausted. Dizzy in the mornings, crying a lot. I have not recovered from the early days where I had post pasfum anxiety and would stay up all night and watch her. Ive barely slept in 6 months and on the surface I look ok but I’ve started to Hate my partner for not helping me on one single night past 1am. For every single night of her life I’ve done her bedtime and her 1am-8.30am slot and obviously all the day care. I need to just go down to 2-3 wakes so I can regroup. I get blurred vision every night cause of exhaustion. My skin is rashing. So, we are going on a trip for 5 days to the sea to relax and enjoy the last contact naps which she does exclusively and Coles which we have now returned to. That’s why I feel so bad, sleep has gotten so bad and her cot refusal so bad that I ended up cosleeping with her and feeding to sleep after getting us to a point she was rocking to sleep and on her next to me. I thought it would be a good idea to get her sued to her new bedroom before sleep training but it backfired and she’s back in my bed cosleeping. It feels now inhumane to sleeep train when I’ve messed up her associations again. I feel so shameful and so guilty, I’ve only ever got As in school and uni and firsts in degreee ans I cannot get this baby to be a good sleeper. I’d love any encouragement or advice re sleep training. I’ve paid a consultant so I have someone accountability wise and I am confused on schedules and just need a help but she’s not even o told me her methods?