u/aracha2026

We serve in various capacities, but we are all God's servants.

I like to be alone. It was working, hobbies, sleep, and the pattern continues, and I was happy with this structure. Recently, I went on a blind date for the first time in a long time. There was nothing common between us, but it made me realize that my life is emotionally repetitive. Without something to look forward to, without someone to talk to, without any life to feel good, I miss everything. I'm now waiting to understand how to make a richer and fuller life rather than living on a day-to-day basis.

What was helpful for you to leave that cycle? (If you have experienced this before)

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I was happy and regularly living my life alone, but then I got into a situation where I became connected, and everything seemed different since then. I am not so sure if it is solitude that brings peace, or not relying on outside connections for an alive feeling. What happens to you when your life experience suddenly changes on you like this?

I meditate just for fun or sometimes when I'm bored. I really want to understand its importance.

At some point in life, I challenge myself to start a relationship, thinking I would find someone who would love me the way. Unfortunately, my first relationship never worked out as expected. I tried making the second attempt, and it was a negative result as well. Currently, I have chosen not to start any relationship again, but as I age, I feel some emptiness and have started to ask myself what is going on.