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So I've had windows my entire friggin life since windows 3.1. I was curious about Zorin Pro 18.1, and needed to format my drive anyway, so I did a clean install. Holy crap man. It literally has zero problems, does everything I want, and I feel like I don't need windows anymore.

Yes, I expected some games and my music recording stuff not to work, but I mostly play on GeForce now anyway.

Is this what most people say when they switch, that there's no reason to go back?

I need to know if you think she's cheating. 

We been married over 10 years. I am 46 and she's 48. About 5 years ago we split up for like a month. Gave each other permission to see someone else. With that permission, I did, for like 2 months, but decided I needed to put the family back together for everyone, or at least do my part and try. 

So 5 years later it's been up and down. Mostly down I'd say. Now this is not my imagination. I swear to God I am blamed for every single thing on earth. NOTHING is her fault. When relationship stuff comes up, for example, like us not talking for a week, it's my fault and she says she did nothing wrong even though she also didn't say anything. I bring up the fact that two people are involved, NOPE, always my fault 100%. 

When things are better I will sometimes do basic stuff like give a hug or maybe even a quick kiss or sit next to her on the couch. 

Hug= pushed away and told “alright alright, I'm busy!" 

Kiss= pull back with a disgusted look on face 

I say I love you= never said in return

I ask if I can talk about something important= “I don't have 30 seconds!" 

I ask literally any questions about our relationship and get complete silence. She looks at her phone while I talk. I ask nicely if she could please put her phone down and pay attention because it's important. NOPE. 

I ask things like “do you care?", “hello?", “can I get a response please?". I get “what?!" Like she has no idea what I'm asking for. 

Yeah so anyway. Like 8 years ago I found a chat she had online with some random guy. It never went Anywhere but she told she guy she was single with 1 kid, and she has two kids. I showed it to her, she apologized, wasn't an issue after that. 

I am kind of naturally paranoid, and have sometimes thought she was cheating but never found any evidence and realized it's just my own mind. 

Last night everything was great, it was like we were actually married again, I thought.  I asked her to sit next to me, “I'm fine right here". Ok, I let it go. The day before it was her birthday and I made sure me and our younger son made a big deal out of it. So last night again, we are sitting on a bench and everything is great. I say “happy 4 th of July! I love you!" And gave her a real quick kiss. She had the disgusted look on her face. I waited for her to say I love you but she didn't. So I jokingly said it again, nothing. One more time, nothing. I said “really" she said “yeah really!". Oooooook.  About 15 min later I asked “so what's the problem, why do you not like me? It's like you can't stand me at all" 

No response. I kept asking. No response. Finally she said “I don't know". Clearly no thought put into it at all. 

That was it. I decided right there she doesn't care about this at all. So I asked “are you seeing somebody else?". She looked surprised and said “did you see me with someone else?!" I said “no, but just because I don't physically see it doesn't mean it's not happening". She said “I bet you the one that's cheating". I am not. 

I said “I can't hug you. I can't kiss you. I can't touch you in any way at all without you acting like it's the worst thing in the world. I thought things were getting better. Weren't they?”

No response. 

So, I am thinking if I have any reason to believe she's seeing someone else. She's been coming home late more often. Not that much but more often. I get the feeling she is just stringing me along until lease time comes up and then she's out. 

Oh, and last night I finally did get an answer as to why she can't stand me, after I asked and begged for like 15 minutes for ANY response. I think it's a BS answer given to justify her hidden actions. 

She said “well 5 years ago you got with that girl. You think I'm just gonna get over it?!" 

This has never been mentioned before. At that time she is well aware we split up and had said go ahead and see other people. I reminded her of that. I also reminded her that if this was a problem I sure would have liked to have known about it. I have only asked what the problem is like 100 times and never heard this before. 

Then there was some BS about " you always say that's it, I'm done, and cut off the conversation”

I asked for a single example of that, there was no response. I said I don't do that, in fact I'm the one who tries to start the conversations and am given total silence every single time. It is simply not true. 

So now we aren't talking. I tried to talk. Begged to talk. It's pointless. 

What do you guys think is going on? Another guy? Are we finished?

I need to know if you think she's cheating.

We been married over 10 years. I am 46 and she's 48. About 5 years ago we split up for like a month. Gave each other permission to see someone else. With that permission, I did, for like 2 months, but decided I needed to put the family back together for everyone, or at least do my part and try.

So 5 years later it's been up and down. Mostly down I'd say. Now this is not my imagination. I swear to God I am blamed for every single thing on earth. NOTHING is her fault. When relationship stuff comes up, for example, like us not talking for a week, it's my fault and she says she did nothing wrong even though she also didn't say anything. I bring up the fact that two people are involved, NOPE, always my fault 100%.

When things are better I will sometimes do basic stuff like give a hug or maybe even a quick kiss or sit next to her on the couch.

Hug= pushed away and told “alright alright, I'm busy!"

Kiss= pull back with a disgusted look on face

I say I love you= never said in return

I ask if I can talk about something important= “I don't have 30 seconds!"

I ask literally any questions about our relationship and get complete silence. She looks at her phone while I talk. I ask nicely if she could please put her phone down and pay attention because it's important. NOPE.

I ask things like “do you care?", “hello?", “can I get a response please?". I get “what?!" Like she has no idea what I'm asking for.

Yeah so anyway. Like 8 years ago I found a chat she had online with some random guy. It never went Anywhere but she told she guy she was single with 1 kid, and she has two kids. I showed it to her, she apologized, wasn't an issue after that.

I am kind of naturally paranoid, and have sometimes thought she was cheating but never found any evidence and realized it's just my own mind.

Last night everything was great, it was like we were actually married again, I thought. I asked her to sit next to me, “I'm fine right here". Ok, I let it go. The day before it was her birthday and I made sure me and our younger son made a big deal out of it. So last night again, we are sitting on a bench and everything is great. I say “happy 4 th of July! I love you!" And gave her a real quick kiss. She had the disgusted look on her face. I waited for her to say I love you but she didn't. So I jokingly said it again, nothing. One more time, nothing. I said “really" she said “yeah really!". Oooooook. About 15 min later I asked “so what's the problem, why do you not like me? It's like you can't stand me at all"

No response. I kept asking. No response. Finally she said “I don't know". Clearly no thought put into it at all.

That was it. I decided right there she doesn't care about this at all. So I asked “are you seeing somebody else?". She looked surprised and said “did you see me with someone else?!" I said “no, but just because I don't physically see it doesn't mean it's not happening". She said “I bet you the one that's cheating". I am not.

I said “I can't hug you. I can't kiss you. I can't touch you in any way at all without you acting like it's the worst thing in the world. I thought things were getting better. Weren't they?”

No response.

So, I am thinking if I have any reason to believe she's seeing someone else. She's been coming home late more often. Not that much but more often. I get the feeling she is just stringing me along until lease time comes up and then she's out.

Oh, and last night I finally did get an answer as to why she can't stand me, after I asked and begged for like 15 minutes for ANY response. I think it's a BS answer given to justify her hidden actions.

She said “well 5 years ago you got with that girl. You think I'm just gonna get over it?!"

This has never been mentioned before. At that time she is well aware we split up and had said go ahead and see other people. I reminded her of that. I also reminded her that if this was a problem I sure would have liked to have known about it. I have only asked what the problem is like 100 times and never heard this before.

Then there was some BS about " you always say that's it, I'm done, and cut off the conversation”

I asked for a single example of that, there was no response. I said I don't do that, in fact I'm the one who tries to start the conversations and am given total silence every single time. It is simply not true.

So now we aren't talking. I tried to talk. Begged to talk. It's pointless.

What do you guys think is going on? Another guy? Are we finished?

Ok, so I am going to put two posts in here because I had another dream and need to know if anyone else has seen the stuff I saw. Anyway, here are the facts.

I am 46, male I have always been able to remember my dream every night, and after this experience I developed superpowers I could control.

I was about 13. In my dream I was in a foggy room. It sounded like people were hammering metal. I was dragged into a room and strapped to a table face up. It was like one of those tables that can have people up vertically, like one of those back problem tables, not sure what it's called.

Somebody else came into the room and made me vertical on the table. I couldnt see the guy but he said "we are going to show you some colors, and you will be able to do things after that".

This thing that looked like a prism floated up right in front of my face and then started spinning around really fast. A light was shined into it from the other side and all these colors were going right into my eyes. I was being "programmed", that's what was implied anyway.

I woke up, called it the "Rainbow Prism Device". Told some people. Nobody cared. Now I'm old.

Anyway, since that dream I have learned to do things in my dreams over the next 30 years.

I am able to fly now, exactly like superman. In the beginning it was NOT good. I would go too high and be afraid I was going to die in space, no control at all. Or I would go too slow and just float there. I learned there is some kind of feeling I have to have in my head that makes me go the way I want to go. I can do it whenever I want now.

I learned to move things by thinking about it, and using my hands. For example, in one dream I was sitting at a desk and needed a pen. There was one on another desk. I stuck my hand out and "pulled it" to me. When I do this there is a feeling in my hands that I get. This power is also limited. I will get physically tired and not able to do it for a while. In the beginning it barely worked. Things would like move a little and stop, or go the wrong way. Now I can push and pull. But I'll get tired.

I can run super fast. But you have to remember I still have a brain operating in normal time. If you were able to run like the flash but had a brain still operating in normal time you would splatter yourself all over the first object in the way. So when I do this I only go in a straight line to a place I can see that there is nothing in the way. For a second, the things on the sides of my vision kind of fade out, and I can be like blocks away from where I was in a second or two. This power was not learned until I was probably 35. It didn't work very well in the beginning. I couldn't go farther than like a few steps away and I would bump into things. Also, when I started doing this things would become black and white. I have no idea why.

I have never seen the prism guy or the prism itself since that dream when I was 13. But I think about what the guy said all the time, that it would enable me to do things. I have looked into any research on altering the brain using light or color sequences but I haven't found anything. I don't know if that would really work or not.

So, that's what happened. Anybody had anything like that happen?

In my other post I have to tell you about a mall dream. I am pretty sure I encountered other people who were also dreaming. Give me a minute to write that one ok? Thanks!

I really want the T-Mobile internet because I am tired of Xfinity. I don't need 2.5gb. I just need to watch some Netflix and occasionally play GeForce now. Store says no, app says yes. What do I do?