u/aspuzzledastheoyster

Giles Corey? I can't even think about it.

Shit is shit, hurts to breathe, hurts to function. I haven't been this bad in a long time. I don't want Earthmover to win the 1v1, so... I just stopped listening to HANL in general until I get better.

Awesome band though. Awesome albums, awesome music. I have the vinyl of the 3 albums but I'm NOT touching them anytime soon.

I'm staying with my partner and his parents during my visit of a week. I'm moving to this country in a few weeks (to live in a different house). There's a language barrier. Anyway, I take my meds regularly. 3 pills every night. Turns out they saw it and got curious, and somehow learned, in these words, "if he doesn't take those meds, he sees hallucinations."

I never wanted it to be revealed like this. I don't blame anyone, because it was a very complicated happening. I heard the only thing they did was worry for my future job options. I didn't talk with them about this (if I do, they will know that I somehow heard about their knowledge about this, and of course, the language barrier).

His mother has a complicated belief about psychiatric medicines, so I don't know how fucked I really am. And I already feel like I'm on thin ice, I gotta be proper at all costs because I love them a lot and I want them to love me back. This is definitely not a good impression.

I dont want them to change their perception of me. I don't ever want them to suggest to my partner something like "There are tons of people outside and you found a physically disabled and mentally ill one." Yeah I'm also physically disabled, so I feel like it might appear like "the one who has endless problems." I can't help it. It's not my fault. By the way, my partner and I are long-term and serious. I don't want this revelation of psychosis to fuck things up in the eyes of his parents.

I'm very nervous about this. I never would have revealed it to them like this. I usually just say something like "my dopamine receptors misfire sometimes" or similar things. Not straight-up "seeing hallucinations."

Any advice? Anyone gone through a similar thing?