u/bathe-in-acid

im very sorry if what im about to write is hard to understand or unclear in any way

for context, i am 16 years old and a few months ago me and my friends had this extremely edgy humour where we’d basically joke about horrible topics like child sexual abuse, rape etc. (to clarify i am absolutely not proud of what i found funny and i have since moved on as a person)

when we were rightfully called out on it, everyone denied it and blamed it on me, while also accusing me of being a pedophile and having CP on my phone (i think this claim was to ensure id have absolutely no credibility or ability to come back from the allegations as there was 0 proof for or against it)

because of this, i lost all of my friends and just stopped going to school and i didnt even bother trying to defend myself from such heinous allegations. i basically stayed in bed all day and felt overwhelming guilt and shock

since then, although i have absolutely no sexual attraction to children and the thought of it makes me physically nauseous, my mind always jumps to disgusting thoughts about them and relating to what i was accused of. it’s literally like i have no control over my mind and i have to live with it every day and i dont know what to do

as a result i often struggle with harmful thoughts and i cant help but wonder if its all a result of the trauma of being accused of those things but at the same time idk

what do i do?

im tryna know cuz for me mainstream has really lost all of its appeal wbu guys tho

tbh idek why i refreshed spotify lmao there will be no album tonight hes just saying stuff

we’ve alr passed midnight uk time and i dont think hed drop at the same hour as mink so maybe next month guys

dear bleood until u prove u rlly read the sub i will remain bleoodnostic (unsure of the existence of bleood on his own subreddit) please show us a sign amen

its gotten to a point where this guy is showing absolutely no honest signs of changing. hes lied about being clean, still scamming his fans and blames everybody but himself, yes a lot of stuff that’s happened to him hasnt been his fault but he’s really pitying himself now and its getting pathetic.

especially him saying he can only get more studio time if people pay him for it like what

hes reached the final addict form and theres pretty much nothing anyone can do for him and hes done irreparable damage to his career

tbh i can see him breadcrumbing us over the album for another few months so the sooner its leaked the better

ggs phreshboy u had a good run

if so could i please get a link to it

my friends in Nottingham say its a shithole and its ridden with knife crime and anti social behaviour. can anyone give me some insight into how it actually is to live there? from what ive seen on street view the abbotsford dr/west side of st annes looks pretty rough aswell as thorneywood in the north east. havent been able to find anywhere that looks that up together maybe apart from the st marys rest garden area but of course i dont have the full perspective

you will pass biology guys.

same as last time, 0 attendance/revision ✌️

i WILL lower the boundaries

- the great sacrifice

no revision or attendance in 6 months don’t worry guys its a worthy sacrifice 🥹

i am 16 and ive been pretty much addicted to short form content for 7/8 years

for the last month i genuinely feel like i havent been getting any dopamine from scrolling which is pretty much all i do at this point. i just exist now.

genuinely what do i do at this point man im so fried i cant enjoy anything anymore or even work in any respect

basically i havent been to school or revised in months and i have little to no motivation to do anything at all to the point where i can hardly get out of bed.

because of this i know i absolutely will not pass my gcses apart from maybe 1 subject. im considering just not trying because then i can preserve the tiny bit of self confidence i still have.

is there any hope or chance for me after failing everything to go to college or have a successful career?

it really sucks because i used to be one of the best in my class and i know that if i wasnt in this mental state id do so well

everyone says pbs is a pioneer of the uk ug and had a massive influence over other rappers but who did he actually inspire/influence? this isnt hate hes my favourite but im lowk curious bc i dont really pick up any phreshboyswag in other arists? let me know

everything ive tried, people i know have surpassed me in every way, no matter how much effort i put in. it can be quite demotivating to be alive for 16 years with absolutely nothing to show for it. tbh i think my severe lack of motivation and loss of interest in my interests and life participation might come down to being talentless so i kinda need to start coping asap before my time ends in 2 years.

can someone please give me some advice

kyi? a single?