u/bigfluffycatmeow

I seriously tell you that if you do YOU WILL REGRET IT. Do anything you can but DON'T REACH OUT TO THEM. Honest to god, on everything I love you WILL NOT feel better, whatever they'll say WON'T MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER, ONLY WORSE.

Just assume the worst. Assume that every awful thing that you imagined is true. Every last bit of hope you still have WILL DESTROY YOU.

DESTROY ALL THE HOPE OF MAKING THINGS UP WITH THEM BEFORE IT DESTROYS YOU.

Keep it together you're strong you can overcome this you got this you are a human being not someone's pet you are a wonderful person full of life and stories to tell you are valuable on your own you are valuable as a distinct person you don't need anyone to assure you of that you can stand by yourself you can be yourself

Don't text her

Don't do it

One word - pain. I'm in so much pain. I don't want emotional support, I don't want sex, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just want her back. I want to spend time with her even if not as a partner, even if just as friends. I just want to see her, to be near her. I'm hurting. I'm suffering. I have no life right now.

It's been a week. We've never not talked for so long.

God damn it I'm in hell. She was a part of me. The most beautiful part of my life. She left me to fight my depression on my own. She dumped me providing half-ass explanations. And now I see her spending time talking and laughing with our mutual male friend and I question myself. I must have never been good enough. She'll move on so easily. She'll find someone smarter more confident more well refined than me. And I'll just keep being a broken mess.

It doesn't feel like I will ever get used to it. I know I will but. I just can't.