u/blackjackson1991

Got about 400 hours in the game so im decent. Just reinstalled cuz of the update and made some owl mystics. I have been able to steam roll as every other culture but I have ONE victory as mystics.

Magic early on is WAY weaker than just brute force also ya gotta spend mana to use spells. I keep running into order affinity enemies and they just endless stack bolster and strength then suddenly their lvl 4 hero is doing 100+ damage attack and since all their units are magic resistant now I do like 7 damage MAX! The mystics have 0 front line or ability to lock down enemies.

Current match im on turn 30 and had a war with an order high culture and hes got paladins and shit and im still rocking tier 2s because the mystics have NO economy to speak of! I get the idea of a slow start but god fucking DAMN this is just not fun!

I don't feel like a magical empire of esoteric geniuses I feel like an anemic army of discount party clowns queefing glitter at roided up space marines lol.

Spawned into the jungle, and fuck my life its FLOODED!, so literally every square inch is covered in water making digging a NIGHTMARE! Then of course the elder shell back appears. Now up until JUST now I thought there was ONE of the cunts. So I ran left and managed to avoid it and started digging for dear life. Managed to find the ONE area not flooded and was riding a vine down. Suddenly ANOTHER elder! and OH FUCK THE ONE FROM ABOVE IS BACK! I am hauling ASS trying to escape em. I see both the pricks on the edge of the screen when a THIRD FUCKING ELDER pops up to my right! at that point I just fuckin gave up. There was literally no way to escape em. My little expie got all his limbs ripped off and he died. Kinda pissed NGL!

Just needed to vent. Ive been, essentially, my mom's care taker for my entire life. A horrendous accident when I was a baby left her partially disabled. Im now in my mid 30s and every year of my life has been burned away keeping her not only alive but mentally stable for lack of a better word.

The past few years with the economy have been INCREDIBLY horrible and my mom's disintegrating mental health caused her to crash and burn and totally destroy her career over about 2 years. Because of how broke we've always been as a family our finances have always been linked because I couldn't live on my own and neither could she. But when she had a mental break down she just let everything go up in flames.

Im now homeless and were living in a hotel while im the ONLY one bringing in money. Even my career has been destroyed by her mental episodes and I am just HOPING against hope that she can keep it together long enough to get an entry level job.

Meanwhile all she does is lay on the bed. I work 8 hours then have to go grocery shopping, do all the cooking, all the cleaning, all the laundry, handle all the bills, AND get her shit 24 7. She doesn't or CANT even fucking get up and get herself a drink.

The worst part of it? There was a moment for ONE second where I could have been free. My mom was feeling suicidal because she KNOWS she's stolen my entire life and she said she knows I would be better without her. What was awful was she's right! I love my mom she and I legit are close so I obviously would and could never say she's right. And thats what hurt the most. I dont want her GONE i just want her to be better. And for a split second I saw my freedom. My future is gone im old now there is no hope. I know I will never have a family or a career or anything. And she handed me the key to my life and morally I had to throw it away.

My future was taken the day i was born. The bitch of it is I know things won't get better and I know in the end im probably just going to take my own life. Truthfully I have NO idea why I haven't yet. Ive gotten close a couple of times but I always pussy out at the last second.

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Is there a way to wield weapons in the off hand? Almost beat a run for the second time but got fucked by a broken hand.

In the jungle about 100 meters from bottom. Elder starts digging towards me so I book it.

Managed to get away BUT a vine grabbed me and dislocated my hand so I couldn't swing my machete. Then I got nibbled to death by those little green bastards lol.

Im wondering if there's a reason or a term for why I own my damage? Like im not PROUD of the fact that im fucked up freak show low born white trash but it's more like "you cant attack me with THAT! What? You thought I didn't KNOW im a freak? Fuck you! I KNOW WHAT I AM!"

It feels like im just being HONEST about myself and trying to deny that im low born scum would just be delusional and egotistical.