u/bombabomba13200

One thing that Led me to speculate that i have DID is me being super forgetful. I dont remember much of anything from my childhood, i have issues putting memories in a chronological order etc.

But is dissociation what causes forgetting what you did thru the day too? My therapist told me some Time ago, before me reseafching DID, that im forgetting stuff bcs im not playing attention to things happening and that i should practice noticing things more. She also said that thats why i dont remember anything from my childhood... But i feel like i would remember SOME things.

My memories are always foggy and are more concepts than anything. I dont remember funerals or weddings, minor or major stuff, nothing. I feel like memories would stick more even if i "didnt pay attenrion"

And that leads me to the other questions which is: is it possible to be zoned out everyday or might it be dissociation?

I heard about people with did not knowing what they did thru the day but id say that im pretty chill most of the time so i dont know why i would dissociate.

Sorry if this is a bit chaoitc English isnt my first language.

I saw a video showcasing it on tiktok and i cant, for the love of god, find it. It has big buttons and birght colors, was a Rectangular machine, you could loop your sample (and i think change pitch and do other stuff too obviously 😭 but i dont remember the specifics) with those wacky buttons and knobs. The key feature was the whimsy of it so to say. It was very colorful (i think it had a lot of yellow, dont take this too seriously tho) and had a lot of knobs and buttons that looked/worked in an unusual way.

Ive looked thru tags and profiles and cant find it. I think it was a show case on an account of the brand that made it. If anyone has any ideas (even similar products) please let me know!!!

Idk if calling it hallucinations is correct but well

I remember someone saying that sometimes your brain just makes stuff up when its bored and its normal to hear things that arent there, but to what degree?

I almost always hear the tv being on during the day even if im home alone and didnt turn it on at all. I think its Just that i hear it being on a lot and im Just used to it.

I hear some unrecognizable voice yelling something cross the house (when someone calls your name but you arent exacly sure if its actually your name type sound)

Also just like footsteps sometimes or people calling my name quietly. A lot of tapping and sounds that machines make (when theyre not there).

Im completely out of the loop with how normal these are. Can someone even reassure me if its totally normal and silly of me to ask 😭

Can i link the Spotify profile i had liked on my old account after it gets deleted? From what i gathered discord deleted banned accounts (i was banned for "ban evasion" and i still dont know what i did lmao) after a year or so (?). Is this kind of data stored or can i just link it and nothing happens? I dont wanna deal with making a new account and stuff again...

Is there a server for small vocaloid/synthv etc producers? Id love to meet other people that make music with vocal synthesizers but cant find a server like this :(. Idc how many people are in it, if its active them im in.