u/brutalbrig

It's a good day. I spent pretty much my whole life thinking I had a small dick. Not even kidding. I was always kinda insecure about it, just assumed I was below average.
Then I was with this girl and she made a comment about how big I was. I honestly thought she was just being nice lol. But she seemed genuinely surprised when I told her I thought I was small.
So I actually measured it for the first time. 9 inches. I measured it again because I thought I was doing something wrong.
Turns out I had absolutely no idea what average was. Kinda crazy I spent so many years being insecure about something that was apparently the complete opposite of what I thought. Sure the economy sucks but today I learned I have a big dick. Kinda cool.

Can anyone help me. I made a bad business decision and wasted a year of time. Now a long term employee is leaving for another competitor. I clearly made mistakes and I acknowledge it. But I can't stop reliving it and wishing I did something different and beating myself up for it. I feel like a psychosis is forming. I'm on no drugs.
Just daily caffeine. I can't break out of this!!! It's chest crushing and debilitating for weeks now. Loved ones can only help so much. I've bounced it off them but I keep going back to where I screwed up. It's not a self harm situation but my brain is causing me major issues to the point where it's hurting me.

Can anyone help me. I made a bad business decision and wasted a year of time. Now a long term employee is leaving for another competitor. I clearly made mistakes and I acknowledge it. But I can't stop reliving it and wishing I did something different and beating myself up for it. I feel like a psychosis is forming. I'm on no drugs. Just daily caffeine. I can't break out of this!!! It's chest crushing and debilitating for weeks now. Loved ones can only help so much. I've bounced it off them but I keep going back to where I screwed up. It's not a self harm situation but my brain is causing me major issues to the point where it's hurting me.