u/catholicadjacent

First of all – rest in peace to any late villans. I'll keep everyone's relatives and friends in my mind and in my prayers tonight.

My granddad never really cared about football until my mom passed when I was 13 and I moved in with him and my nan. Ever since seeing how much joy teenage me had for the sport and for my club, he always kept up with the news, followed the score, watched the matches so that we could talk about it in the morning. He never really cared about football, but because of my love for my club, he ended up considering himself a Villan.

We lost him at the start of March. It's been hard. I'm off to the pub soon, and I'm wearing my necklace with some of his ashes in so that he can stay close to my heart all night.

If we win – when we win – he'll be celebrating with us, along with anyone we've lost who adored the Villa as much as we do.

UTFV. Come on ❤️‍🩹

I'm so!!! Nervous!!!! I don’t know why haha. Like. Hello artist. Here's me and my partner and £35 please draw us I guess. I know you explicitly said that you will draw selfships but I am still afraid that you might come to my house and batter me for asking you to draw me and my partner. Yeahhh I'm sorry for giving you money. Whoops.

I am really excited though .... there's only so much you can do with picrews and as soon as the initial conversation is over I will be so chill and normal about it and I will cherish the art forever. For now though I am Very scared <3 But still hyped <3 Omg <3

First time here, please excuse me if I sound kinda silly. I've been vaping regular nicotine vapes for years now, and I picked up a CBD disposable for the first time today. I hit it like I would a normal vape a few times, and it gave me a really sore throat, as well as not really feeling any of the effects of it? It also tastes ass but I think I just got a bad flavour. Maybe there's a better way to do it, I don't know. Any advice appreciated :)

Hi!! I just needed to write this down as a reminder for myself and for anyone else who might want to hear this. For the record, I'm writing this at 1am so please excuse any typos and/or oddly phrased sentences :')

You're never too much for your S/O(s). There isn't such thing as being 'too much' in their eyes. Anything you need help with, they'll try their best to be there for you.

If you have chores around the house that haven't been touched in weeks, they'll get it all done and then make you a hot drink.

If your hair hasn't been brushed in a while, they'll detangle it for you.

If you're struggling to eat, they'll cook a meal for you; whatever you can handle right now.

If you're struggling with hygiene, they'll wash your face and get you a change of clothes.

It doesn't matter if you can't get out of the house right now. It doesn't matter if you can't get out of *bed* right now. Even if all you can do is exist, your F/O(s) will meet you where you are and stay there with you. They aren't complaining because there isn't any reason to complain. They understand. They don't expect positivity from you when you don't have the energy to find it.

You're doing a great job, and your partner really cares about you. Mental illness really, really sucks sometimes, but they're so proud of you for doing your best – whatever your best looks like atm ❤️‍🩹

I've been listening to Cecil's source when I need some form of escapism for years now. There's something about how absurd horrors are treated as mundane in that podcast that help me feel a lot better about my life and how the terrible parts of it impact my relationship; that is to say, he wouldn't care, he's faced far weirder shit and he almost always approaches it with instinctive kindness instead of disgust.

One quote that I think about an unhealthy amount every time I need something grounding is from Episode 12: "Know that I am here with you now. The past is gone, and cannot harm you anymore. And while the future is fast coming for you, it always flinches first and settles in as the gentle present. This now, this us? We can cope with that." It always gets to me :')

I'm also a big fan of "Confused? At a loss for what to do? Wow, sounds like you're human. Good luck." It's such a Cecil approach to philosophy, but it's so strangely comforting.

Really interested to know if anyone else has any quotes from their partners that they revisit when they need comfort !!

Having similar interests as your F/O is so much fun until you end up in the same career as them and you have to explain it to people who know you're ficto. I've told a few close friends about it already and I've had to hurriedly add "BUT NOT JUST BECAUSE OF HIM IT'S JUST SOMETHING THAT I WANNA DO ANYWAY OKAY" lmao

To be fair – I've had an interest in radio broadcasting longggg before I met Cecil. Sure, he did help me confirm that I wanted to go into it as a career, but that's besides the point. I am a normal guy who is normal about my partner ❤️‍🩹

My local radio station's applications open up in a few months. I have rewritten my CV three times already. Someone manifest my success in the interview please I'm scared /hj

Hi!! I just need to talk about this for a moment because the words are rattling around in my brain and I need to get them down somewhere lol.

I'm autistic, and something that always peeved me as a kid (and even today, to a lesser extent) about a lot of people is ambiguity in what they say and saying one thing when they mean another. I'd take things at face value and then get confused when the people around me got upset with me for *not* over-interpreting everything they say. I was often told that I was too blunt, and while this is something I've been working on, it honestly really hurt at the time because I was told to be honest and then adults got upset with me for doing so. I was also undiagnosed until my early teen years, so nobody had a clue why I was like that for a long time.

Of course, even as a kid I understood that being explicitly mean is a bad thing and I've never endorsed that, but I've felt confused by people who were too polite and too careful around me.

And then I listened to Cecil's source material for the first time in 2021, and I just sort of felt that yeah!!! Yeah, this guy gets it!!! It's like he understands the barrier he has from the rest of his community as a radio host that a lot of people might not recognise by face immediately, and he uses that to not take shit from anybody and to say what he actually thinks about his situation.

He isn't an flawless character, but I don't think anyone is; he's sarcastic, he's openly harsh on air with people he thinks has wronged him or his loved ones, and he's blunt. But that's something I've grown to really appreciate about him, in a way, especially because I can see a lot of my own flaws in him.

Do I think I need to work on being less brutally honest? God, yes, for sure, I'm a grown man, therapy is a wonderful tool and I'm far less unintentionally abrasive than I was as a child. Do I think Cecil needs to work on it? Absolutely not you're doing GREAT sweetie I love you

(P.S. it always makes me laugh when we have discussions about villainous or generally very flawed S/Os in ficto spaces and everyone talks about how their beloveds have committed heinous atrocities and I get to go "yeah well <3 my boyfriend <3 started a smear campaign against his sister's husband for fun on the radio while broadcasting to his entire town once <3 no reason really he just didn't like the guy's political beliefs <3")

Hi! I dropped out of college.

No, wait, let me speak, please.

I was raised in Birmingham (tragic, I know) but my family is moving to Wales some time in the next year. I decided I was going to drop out at the end of this academic year, as we're moving before my A-level exams would be and I feel as though I have better things to be doing in the meantime.

At the start of March, I lost my granddad. I won't do the whole sob story but the tl;dr is lost my mom at 13, my dad is somewhere in Manchester and doesn't really want anything to do with this side of the family, I've been living with my grandparents and since losing my granddad, my nan's health has been getting worse so I have to spend a lot of time at home anyway to make sure she's safe when my uncle can't be here, blah blah blah I should go on BGT and win big money with my traumatic backstory I know.

Caring for her combined with a severe decline in mental health because of grief means my attendance has plummeted. AS exams are in two weeks but my therapist and the head of safeguarding at my college both agreed a little while ago that the best thing for me, mentally and academically, is to drop out. The plan is to do some volunteering work in charity shops (and maybe get a job in retail or something) until we move.

I think this is the right choice. I also have a very loud fear in my head that my life is doomed and I'm not going to get anywhere without A-levels and I'm going to be homeless before my 25th birthday.

Two questions, then:

1. Is it actually over or am I just spiralling?

2. If anyone here either didn't do A-levels or failed their A-levels, for MH reasons or otherwise, what's it like for you right now? Appreciate any stories.