u/celebratorycremation

Nothing to hide nothing to fear right??

I live in a state where I don't need a licensed contractor for work under $7500 and got a quote below that from a roofer who does solid work but isn't licensed. My roof is very simple so I went with him seeing as a licensed guy would have been over 10k. I asked my insurance company what proof they need to update the policy and they said photos and an invoice with his lic. number.

Would they drop me for hiring an unlicensed guy when it wasn't required? When they inspected the old roof it was a quick look with a drone so they didn't seem too picky. I could just not tell them but then if a storm damages it and I have to make a claim...

I've never felt close to my family despite a mostly healthy childhood. I can go weeks without seeing friends and not feel lonely. I haven't given up on dating as much as lost interest in it, which was never much to begin with. Is this because I lean too heavily on spirituality? I feel like these are external, material connections that don't interest me as much as the internal pursuit of wisdom. The problem is that life seems to demand I chase after money, family, possessions, etc. I bought a house recently and feel a lot of friction inside like I should sell it asap. When my last girlfriend broke up I felt relief more than heartbreak. My friends do not understand me at all and neither do I. A thousand years ago I would have pursued a monastic life but how do I find a compatible lifestyle in the modern world? Everything just feels off.

I moved back home with grand ideas of taking over a friend’s business in my line of work but I don’t want it now after a few months. I’m good at the work and it pays well but it doesn't energize me and would involve a lot of customer service if I took over next year which is just not my strength. The idea of committing and doing this for years on end sounds like torture compared to my last job which was similar but seasonal so I knew it wouldn’t last long. If I go back to seasonal work it allows for a lot of time off which I liked, but that kind of life needs less commitment and I wonder if that’s the puer archetype calling the shots. I’m not lazy on a job and will bust my butt, but after a few months I always find myself dreaming of the next opportunity.

So how do you tell the difference between “this is who I really am so I should trust my intuition” vs. the puer that fears anything long term?